Never can beat 3 fucking days! :(

I can never fucking get past 3 days! I always lie to myself, always decieve! I'm always like, "oh just 1 video won't hurt.' Then I end up masturbating and feeling guilty afterwards. I have a to do list, when I get urges which is to do pushups till exhaustion, listen to music, etc. But when I get urges, They're very slight, I get a slight urge to go to porn, and when i do go to porn, that is when it all changes. I go in with a " fuck it" type attitude, and masturbate. Then I'm like , "why the fuck did I do that?" Then I repeat. WHAT DO I DO?!? I DONT KNOW HOW TO END THIS PATTERN OF ONCE EVERY THREE DAYS. THIS IS RUINING MY LIFE! IVE BEEN TRYING TO QUIT FOR A LONG TIME ALMOST 3 MONTHS, AND I CAN'T GET PAST 3 DAYS!!! IVE MADE IT TO 4, BUT WHEN I REALIZE THAT ITS DAY 3 I FAP, FOR JUST THE FACT ITS DAY 3! ILL NEVER BE SUCCESSFUL IF I CONTINUE THIS. THIS HAS GIVEN ME SOCIAL FEAR, AND HAS CAUSED ME TO MANUALLY BREATHE AROUND OTHERS, AND TRY TO HOLD MY BREATH SO THAT THEY DON'T HEAR IT. MY MOM LEFT, IDK WHERE SHE WENT! MY HOUSE IS STRESSFUL, LIVING WITH MY DAD WHO'S MAD ALL THE TIME! THIS ADDICTION HAS OFFICIALLY TAKEN ME OVER, IAM NOT THE SAME PERSON! I NEED HELP, CAN SOMEBODY WHO IS ACTIVE ON THIS SITE GO THROUGH 1 WEEK WITH ME?!? Enough with the caps, but can someone be there for me, if you have discord, or maybe we can talk through here? I need to end this! I will run at the enemy like a gladiator in shining bronze armor, with a sharp sword, strongly grasped in my hand. I will run at my enemy, like a lioning, charging at full speed, like a lion with a thick coat, LIKE A ANGEL WITH A BOW, AIMING AT PORN'S HEAD. HELP ME, IF I WENT 7 DAYS, I'D BE FUCKING RELIEVED! PLEASEEE HELP! IAM ANOTHER BIOLOGICAL ORGANISM IN NEED. THANK YOU FOR READING, SRRY FOR CAPS. ;(

 

How many days your longest? Also, give me tips for urges. Please?

 

Thanks bro. How do your urges come? Mine are weak, so weak that I don't have to do pushups, then I GI to porn site, and then I go with a "fuck it" and I fap. Even if they are weak, should I do pushups? THIS TIME, ILL DO PUSHUPS. AND I WILL MAKE IT 2 WEEKS. WANNA DO THIS TOGETHER BRO? I CAN DO IT WITH YOU. do you have discord? If not, its okay, let's message each other everyday for the next 2 weeks, k?

 

Alright, all three of us will team up, okay? Let's go 2 weeks!

 

Its an app, very popular for gamers

 

Link, you fucking genius! Great idea! Minimum 1 post per day,for the next 2 weeks. And who knows?maybe more people will join! Also I failed like 30 mins ago on day 3.

 

Should we use discord? Do you think it will be easier?