joostyoshi
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Hello there,
I am Joost, 17 years old and addicted to porn. (I am not a native English speaker, so sorry for my grammer and spelling mistakes)
My sexuality has always been messed up, even before watching porn. I won't go into details, because it's probably to gross
Anyways, I already watched "porn" on youtube without even knowing it when I was 13. At my fifthteenth, I tried mastrubation once, because "I had seen someone do something like this and it might be fun". Biggest mistake in my live ever. I still didn't know what mastrubation was and kept watching porn and masturbating because "it felt funny".
The more I watched, the more hardcore porn I needed. I quickly switched from the "youtube porn" to the real porn sites and this porn became steadily more hardcore. After half a year or so, I discoverd that I was mastrubating and with that the bad effects it had on me. Lower concentration, foggy mind, moody, headaches, less energy so on. I decided to lessen, I did and this worked.
Now, one and a half year later since I first started watching porn, I have a "mastrubation schedule". Or rather, I had a mastrubation schedule. I decided to stop four days ago. I used this "mastrubation schedule" to figure out what was the best way to PMO looking at which day I had tests at school. I could go to two days without PMO max, very rarely three days. I tried going for four days sometimes to see wheter I was really addicted, but never succeeded. Conclusion: I am an addict.
But four days ago, I decided: it is enough. I have been lowkey ruining my life for 1,5 years now and I want to stop that. I decided that I am never going to watch porn or mastrubate again.
I think I am quite lucky that I only have 1,5 years of addiction. I see guys on this site that started at their twelth and stopped at their twentieth. I heard that you have more willpower the older you get and since I am quite young, I guess it will be hard. On top of that I have a very messed up sexuality, where going to the toilet can already trigger me. Nevertheless, I think I am going to make it. I have to! I don't want to ruin my life any further.
Thank you for reading this, greatly appreciated
Hope you guys can help. And for anyone out there doing who decided to stop too: you are doing a great job!
Don't give up, I believe in you!
I am Joost, 17 years old and addicted to porn. (I am not a native English speaker, so sorry for my grammer and spelling mistakes)
My sexuality has always been messed up, even before watching porn. I won't go into details, because it's probably to gross
Anyways, I already watched "porn" on youtube without even knowing it when I was 13. At my fifthteenth, I tried mastrubation once, because "I had seen someone do something like this and it might be fun". Biggest mistake in my live ever. I still didn't know what mastrubation was and kept watching porn and masturbating because "it felt funny". The more I watched, the more hardcore porn I needed. I quickly switched from the "youtube porn" to the real porn sites and this porn became steadily more hardcore. After half a year or so, I discoverd that I was mastrubating and with that the bad effects it had on me. Lower concentration, foggy mind, moody, headaches, less energy so on. I decided to lessen, I did and this worked.
Now, one and a half year later since I first started watching porn, I have a "mastrubation schedule". Or rather, I had a mastrubation schedule. I decided to stop four days ago. I used this "mastrubation schedule" to figure out what was the best way to PMO looking at which day I had tests at school. I could go to two days without PMO max, very rarely three days. I tried going for four days sometimes to see wheter I was really addicted, but never succeeded. Conclusion: I am an addict.
But four days ago, I decided: it is enough. I have been lowkey ruining my life for 1,5 years now and I want to stop that. I decided that I am never going to watch porn or mastrubate again.
I think I am quite lucky that I only have 1,5 years of addiction. I see guys on this site that started at their twelth and stopped at their twentieth. I heard that you have more willpower the older you get and since I am quite young, I guess it will be hard. On top of that I have a very messed up sexuality, where going to the toilet can already trigger me. Nevertheless, I think I am going to make it. I have to! I don't want to ruin my life any further.
Thank you for reading this, greatly appreciated
Hope you guys can help. And for anyone out there doing who decided to stop too: you are doing a great job! Don't give up, I believe in you!
