Never. ever. porn again

Hello there,
I am Joost, 17 years old and addicted to porn. (I am not a native English speaker, so sorry for my grammer and spelling mistakes)

My sexuality has always been messed up, even before watching porn. I won't go into details, because it's probably to gross Anyways, I already watched "porn" on youtube without even knowing it when I was 13. At my fifthteenth, I tried mastrubation once, because "I had seen someone do something like this and it might be fun". Biggest mistake in my live ever. I still didn't know what mastrubation was and kept watching porn and masturbating because "it felt funny".
The more I watched, the more hardcore porn I needed. I quickly switched from the "youtube porn" to the real porn sites and this porn became steadily more hardcore. After half a year or so, I discoverd that I was mastrubating and with that the bad effects it had on me. Lower concentration, foggy mind, moody, headaches, less energy so on. I decided to lessen, I did and this worked.
Now, one and a half year later since I first started watching porn, I have a "mastrubation schedule". Or rather, I had a mastrubation schedule. I decided to stop four days ago. I used this "mastrubation schedule" to figure out what was the best way to PMO looking at which day I had tests at school. I could go to two days without PMO max, very rarely three days. I tried going for four days sometimes to see wheter I was really addicted, but never succeeded. Conclusion: I am an addict.

But four days ago, I decided: it is enough. I have been lowkey ruining my life for 1,5 years now and I want to stop that. I decided that I am never going to watch porn or mastrubate again.
I think I am quite lucky that I only have 1,5 years of addiction. I see guys on this site that started at their twelth and stopped at their twentieth. I heard that you have more willpower the older you get and since I am quite young, I guess it will be hard. On top of that I have a very messed up sexuality, where going to the toilet can already trigger me. Nevertheless, I think I am going to make it. I have to! I don't want to ruin my life any further.

Thank you for reading this, greatly appreciated Hope you guys can help. And for anyone out there doing who decided to stop too: you are doing a great job!
Don't give up, I believe in you!

 

I set up a list of strategies that work at what I should do when I got urges. I will put the list here. I also made a list of motvations points, would you like that list too?

How are you going to stop PMO?
- Check list with motivation points
- Read a book when having the urge
- Play a computergame when having the urge
- Check the NoFap mail
- Contacting friends
- Making homework
- Solving a mathematical equation (this sometimes help, because it makes you focus on something else)
- Watching YouTube instead of porn
- Before going to sleep, put my mobile out of range from my bed
- Cold shower in the morning when having morning wood
- Thinking about the consequences

I hope those things will help me In case you have any additional ideas, I would love to hear them