Amendable1399
New Fapstronaut
I'm a 47 year old gay man who has masturbated every day, but over the past couple years it has really gotten out of control, mainly as a result of my obsessive p- consumption. For the past year or two, I've been having an average of 3 PMOs a day, which wasn't so bad, one when I woke up, one before going to sleep, and then one more when I had free time in between. Recently though, it's gone up to 4-6 times a day, which was actually interfering with my life, especially since they involved watching p- for 1-2 hours while edging each time.
Anyways, I was worried about my habit before, but that just made it obvious. A couple of days ago I made the half-assed decision to quit. My problem is that I have very little self control, and when I PMOd twice before getting out of bed yesterday, I realized that I can't half-ass this one. I got some apps on my phone to try to incentivize/support me, i installed a p- blocker (which only a speed bump, not a wall). and joined this site. I started to remove the p- communities from my alt reddit account, but there were so many it was easier to just start a new account. Nofap is the only sub I have.
Besides just the time suck that my p- obsession has become, it's also kept me from having any real relationships. I won't delve into that, because it goes beyond just my p- and masturbation habit, but they are contributing factors.
I'd like to talk to people who understand what I'm going through. I'd like help determining what boundaries i need to set for myself, hopefully by finding another gay man (or men) I can talk to. I'd also like an accountability partner, as I don't have anyone in my life right now that I feel comfortable talking to about this problem.
Anyways, I wish everyone else strength on this journey and look forward to learning more about the community.
Anyways, I was worried about my habit before, but that just made it obvious. A couple of days ago I made the half-assed decision to quit. My problem is that I have very little self control, and when I PMOd twice before getting out of bed yesterday, I realized that I can't half-ass this one. I got some apps on my phone to try to incentivize/support me, i installed a p- blocker (which only a speed bump, not a wall). and joined this site. I started to remove the p- communities from my alt reddit account, but there were so many it was easier to just start a new account. Nofap is the only sub I have.
Besides just the time suck that my p- obsession has become, it's also kept me from having any real relationships. I won't delve into that, because it goes beyond just my p- and masturbation habit, but they are contributing factors.
I'd like to talk to people who understand what I'm going through. I'd like help determining what boundaries i need to set for myself, hopefully by finding another gay man (or men) I can talk to. I'd also like an accountability partner, as I don't have anyone in my life right now that I feel comfortable talking to about this problem.
Anyways, I wish everyone else strength on this journey and look forward to learning more about the community.
