new but bruised

Im 18. Ive been trying for 3+ years now to quit jerking off and porn , but I kept failing , the highest streak Ive ever reached was 31 days .
I feel like this addiction made me a slave to my impulses , extremely unhealthy ( all my joints crack a lot ) and a bad son , and a bad citizen . I know I can do so much in this world and Im dying to quit this clownery and sober up for good .
( Question : do the cracking sounds ever stop for people who quit ejaculating apart from wet dreams ofc )