New Fapstronaut Checking In

Hello fellow fapstronauts,

I started watching porn at around 15 years old (11 years ago) - prior to that I had seen a couple of images and a friend had shown me some videos he found on his dad's computer.

When I started watching videos I'd feel physically ill afterwards, now, I just feel disinterested.

It was only in my early 20s that I started watching regularly (maybe once per week, sometimes more, sometimes less), mostly as a way to relieve stress from uni and loneliness and boredom.

In the last 3 years the frequency has increased to the point that I PMO almost every day, and while I can sometimes MO without P, it is becoming more and more difficult. Sometime PMO is not even possible, though there's no ED, I just can't reach O. The more I struggle to MO, the more vigour and more pressure I need to finish, further decreasing my sensitivity.

After a bit of googling, I came across terms such as 'death grip syndrome'. A few sites recommended treating DGS by exclusively masturbating with a fleshlite, so I purchased a 'mini lotus' which is supposed to give the most realistic experience. The first 1-2 times I used it no P was required, but what I found is that although it was physically tight, it felt ridiculously loose - the same sites that recommend using a fleshlite do warn it can take a while for the sensation to return to normal and for the fleshlite to feel 'right'.

This experience makes me worry that if I ever do get the chance to have sex for real (yep, still a virgin) that I may not enjoy it; it is this fear that has convinced me to try NoFap.

Ideally at the end of my NoFap journey I want to be able to masturbate not more than once a week, always without porn and want to be able to enjoy sex with women.

tl;dr As a virgin, I worry I won't enjoy real sex if/when it happens and I want to fix this problem before it gets any worse - I hope NoFap is the answer.