New fapstronaut on ship. New life, new self!

Hello fellow fapstronauts... Today I joined the fapstronaut family..! Starting from today I did this "journal" to stay motivated because I already relapsed twice, first time in 4th day and second time in 5th day...

I got to admit... I felt the superpowers kick in strongly in just the 3d day... Day 4 it felt awesome, full of energy, clear head, big confidence boost, more attracted to real woman, boost in social confidence, almost stress free, clear thinking, productivity, more social, better vision, no brain fog and more...

Moreover when I relapsed I felt incredibly relaxed, good, and light as feather... But then the chaser effect kicked in and PMOed three more times... The more I was in PMO the worst my OCD kicked in about unwanted sexual thoughts... Not to mention I lost all the superpowers... Depression started to grow... Anxiety showed up, low confidence... Bla bla.. I returned to zero.

I am so used to porn that I search almost everything in order to stimulate my well-porn-trained brain... So I end up in the dark side fantasizing about things I would never do and feeling guilty, stress and shame afterwards... OCD becomes worst... Cant get rid of the unwanted sexual arousal caused by unwanted fantasies...

However when I stop PMO my ocd stops too... Its the excess amount of porn that makes my brain sick constantly seeking for new stimulus...

Porn destroys life... It ruins you hard... I want to stop it...

From today the journey begins..! I will upload my progress in a few days.

 

Thanks a lot. Crossing the second day. No "problem" so far. The chaser effect diminished from yesterday.

 

Thanks for the support! Yesterday I asked a girl I know for some time out.. She gladly agreed to hang out with me late at night. Guys, I know it is too early to feel the superpowers but I felt the sexual energy in me driving me into alpha mode even though its been only some days. I had a noticable increase in confidence and felt incredibly relaxed walking and talking with her. I was kinda nervous and careful about my talking but deep in core I was relaxed, matured and totally ready..! I knew I would feel groggy and anxious if I had masturbated before the "date". It totally felt like a date! I felt alpha around her even though I opened and exposed some of my deeper inner core. It totally doesnt matter, I wanted to be real ! I had no brain fog. Everything went smooth and ended up great! We said goodnight to each other and both were happy and wanted to go out again..!

Now something I want to share with you. Nofap is helping me unstuck from the mud and unlock my true potential. No fancy things, no money bragging, no fast car, no insane muscles, no douchebadigity, just plain kindness, a hearty smile, confidence in speech and an honest look through her eyes is what it takes to take you a lot of steps closer to your girl. Always remember: Confidence and certainty!

I will update with news soon..! Keep going fapstronaut brothers! It totally worths it. A true connection with a real woman is miles and miles BETTER than PMO.

 

Day 6: Today I had a big urge episode... It felt so hard.. Like that energy inside me begged for ejaculation. Sexual thoughts started to kick in. I came up with something that seems to help me overcome the sexual urges.

First I thought that 30 seconds of pleasure (O) totally doesnt worth it.

Secondly (dont laugh but it helps me greatly not to relapse) I did an imaginary scenario that I am a regular guy that gets superpowers during a 7 day timeframe. It takes 7 days for the superpowers (confidence, clear head, energetic bla bla) to fully form. After the 7 days the complete superpowers have a progressive increase the more I stay in nofap. Kind of imagining myself as a form of "superhero" of myself. Sounds complicated but has great results in veer offing my urges.
That kind of imaginary mindset works for now and hope it will continue to work wonders.

Never give up fapstronaut brothers. Remember it doesnt worth it for some pleasureable seconds. Remember that after the pleasure you return to square zero.

I dont know if I will make it to 90 days but I will do my best.

-Rookiefapstronaut

 

Day 6 update: I feel a boiling energy inside me... I cant sleep because of the horniness... But I wont give up. The superpowers are awesome..!!

I met new girls today... I am not even that kind of person to go out and express myself through speech and body language, but today I did it..! I felt the attention from all the women around me. I actually felt zero anxiety and huge confidence. I noticed Women sense your confidence and high sexual energy from the moment you enter their area, they are attracted to your agressive speech and the tender words inbetween agressiveness.

Truthfuly I dont want to give up... I want to establish a real connection with a real woman... And I only want to orgasm inside a woman I feel an actual connection with: Feelings, respect, lust, caress, love. Porn is the worst thing a man can do to himself, it only leads to fake beliefs about sex and objectifies women. Sex is not a performance show that modern times wants us to believe, it is a natural aspect of humanity. An express of true connection and love, and it should be like this. A woman is a person with feelings and a personality. Just like you. Porn wont let you see that. It progressively make you believe that all women are like "that"... And then you treat them like objects and toys.
Quit the porn my brothers. Seek for real and unique connections with actual women. Ejaculate inside the female you truly want, desire and feel.

 

For first time in 15 years of Masturbation I did manage to make it a full week without it!

So I felt like relapsing... And I did it.. It was a clear MO... I felt relieved, I could finally sleep, I dont regret it at all and I dont feel like I lost my superpowers...

I will try a full week again and maybe more... !

 

I relapsed again... Even though I failed for second time I took a valuable lesson... I can direct my sexual energy in the creative way that I want... Only that it is too hard to keep it inside.! I know that with some practice I can make it.. I made it for one week and I was feeling so alpha..! I will try again and update you soon!

 

I failed a lot... I am starting again today.