New Fapstronauts: I'm looking for help, advice and to get rid of porn masturbation

Discussion in 'Porn Addiction' started by Luke 765, Mar 20, 2019.

  1. Luke 765

    Luke 765 Fapstronaut

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    Greetings to all of you Fapstronauts. I already knew the NoFap community, and now I have decided to participate. I am a 16 year old Italian boy who is struggling with all his strength to get rid of this addiction.
    I started masturbating at the age of 12, talking to friends who advised me to try playing my penis while watching sexy images, telling me it would be nice. Over time I started masturbating more times a day every day, using pornographic material. At that age I was completely unaware of the damage I was creating. I continue like this until I begin high school (14 years), when I realized that I was masturbating too much, and so I decided to decrease the number. Over time, I masturbated more and more little, about once a week, in full control of my urges. So I decided not to masturbate for a certain period of time: I arrived at 50 days. During this time I became another person: more confidence in me, increased physical strength, lack of shyness with talking to girls (first I was a very shy boy with the fear of talking to other girls). In short, the advantages of the Nofap, I felt another person, everyone noticed my change.
    Masturbation showed up again on 51 days: Left by the girl, I decided to masturbate to relax. You never did it. The first periods I masturbated regularly, but then, as the months went by, at the age of 15 I started to resume the rhythm of 5-6 masturbations a week. I lost control of myself this summer: I masturbated almost every day, at alternate times, even going to do it more than 10 times in a day. I tried everything on the internet to excite me: I spent whole days without leaving the house to masturbate with the shame of not letting others see me. I saw everything: from hardcore to interracial, to strapon between man and woman and shemale (tired of the usual things, I started looking at these categories)
    Last September I realized that I was an employee of porn-masturbation: I started searching on the internet for videos, guides, books that talked about masturbation. Meanwhile, going through a bad time, I took refuge in masturbation, using it as an escape route. I have come to inflict self-harm and feel depressed for hours, with feelings of guilt increasing more and more. But every time I fell I found the strength to get up, I wanted to stop with all my strength, but every time I fell into this virtuous circle. When I turned 16 I realized that I had to stop before it was too late. I am informed about everything that leads to masturbation addiction, how it makes me feel, how it is created, the lost time, but knowing what brings me, I keep on masturbating, but every time I find the strength of will to get up and continue in this fight. Resigned, my mind went through several times to end it, but I could not let my vice win.
    Currently it is as if I had two personalities: one normal and one when I masturbate. When I do it, I completely lose control of myself and the knowledge of time, spending hours and hours in front of a PC, leaving out everything I was doing before. After the senses guilt arise, feeling a failure for the things I do.
    I am a boy with a nice, nice and nice body, I should have no problem approaching girls in normal conditions, but addiction totally penalizes me. I can only approach girls in those few days of abstinence. I realized that my current situation of depression and weakness leads me to masturbate creating a vicious circle that leads me to feel worse than before
    I would like to become a better person, to be myself, to express my full potential, to follow my dreams, to fuck ... but the addiction stops me in this. I have a great will power, but I can't let them stop, so I'm looking for someone to advise me and help me to stop. The thing I want most and free me from porn-masturbation addiction
    P.S. Sorry for my English
    Thanks to all those who will support me on this long journey for liberation
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  2. nef

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    For an Italian that is really impressive English
    My advice would be to have
    workout daily - It helps in lowering urges
    Reading books - helps in getting confidence
    Being social not digitally but in reality
    Focusing on doing something productive rather than fappin
    Good luck !
     
  3. Luke 765

    Luke 765 Fapstronaut

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    Luke 765 Fapstronaut

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    Thanks for your advice, but what you mean socially and not digitally
     
  5. nef

    nef Fapstronaut

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    Meeting with people in real life not just on Facebook
     

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