New here. For spirituality

Hello! I am 22 and have been masterbating since about 12. I would generally fantasize about some hot girl from school or something and would go on porn maybe once a week or once every 2-3 weeks (would that be considered addiction??). About a year and a half ago I read a book by Swami Sivananda called practice of brahmacharya. This book completely changed my life and I was able to not orgasm (sometimes I would still jerk it but not cum) for 2 months. During this period I felt AMAZING and since I’m a spiritual aspirant my meditation was so deep, peaceful, and amazing. I felt so much drive and ambition and had so much energy and then of course I relapsed and long story short I’ve been trying to get back to that same state! I’ve tried many different yogic methods but I have not been disciplined enough I’m afraid. Needless to say PMO has caused incredible destruction in my life and I want to completely give up masterbation and porn for good and I’m sick and tired of relapsing and feeling like shit every time. I want to make the highest effort as possible and wait for relationship before indulging in sexuality. Is anyone else doing this for spiritual purposes?

 

Yes I’ve tried doing that but it doesn’t produce the same motivation as it once did. It seems as though I have pleateuad when it comes to learning new spiritual stuff especially on brahmacharya... That’s why I’m here now since I hear good things and ppl seem to achieve good results. I used to be able to go at least 7 days without masterbating but recently I could last only a couple days

 

I’ll try that out! I also started a 14 day challenge today where as soon as I walk in my room I do sarvangasana and/or Sirsasana which sublimates the sexual energy extremely well. That would mainly be my problem. Coming home and laying down in bed and then of course the sexual urges come and I would cave in. But yes I agree I need to constantly hammer my mind about the evil effects of masterbation