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yellow_mail

yellow_mail

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Hello everyone,
I've been somewhat of a lurker, but never taken the step to commit to something like this.

I'm gay and I'm been into porn since the 5th grade and its caused so much trouble throughout my life. I think been part of environment where i felt extremely shameful of my sexuality has caused me to develop an unhealthy addiction to porn. I never dated while I was in school too and so I kinda always had porn. After I graduate high school, I hooked up frequently but I never could orgasm without masturbating. I'm finally in my first serious relationship and no matter we try I can't orgasm and it makes me feel very shitty. He's been very understanding but I worry it might cause worse problems in the future. I just want to be able to have a healthy sexual relationship. Recently I've been dealing with depression regarding my academic success at school and so whenever I'm frustrated or overwhelmed by depression, I always go to porn for comfort and I want to break that cycle.

I don't burden my boyfriend by going to complete without having sex, but I want to commit to at least no porn at all and masturbating. Tomorrow I'm starting my promise and hopefully I can clean and sober so I can improve my relationship.
 
Hello! I’m here as well. It’s nice to know there are other gay men as well goin through this. Feel free to communicate and say what you will.
 
Well that lasted, I fucked up and gave in. Honestly its my fault I felt the urges especially since I was home alone but I didn't listen. I need to break these habits, I think I'm going to delete my saved porn library I have cause I keep going to it and I might start unfollowing blogs that tend have posts that I trigger me. God I feel so bad but I need to use this time to record what triggered me and try to avoid, i cant waste anymore time in feeling bad about myself
 
yellow_mail said:
Well that lasted, I fucked up and gave in. Honestly its my fault I felt the urges especially since I was home alone but I didn't listen. I need to break these habits, I think I'm going to delete my saved porn library I have cause I keep going to it and I might start unfollowing blogs that tend have posts that I trigger me. God I feel so bad but I need to use this time to record what triggered me and try to avoid, i cant waste anymore time in feeling bad about myself
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You can do this and we are here to help .pm me
 
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