New here (my story)

Hiya

have been reluctant to sign up but here I am lol a little about me im 25 and been addicted to porn since the age of about 13-14. Growing up I had no relationships with girls and I mean not even a kiss until I was about 20 I never had any sexual contact with a girl until I lost my V to a girl I met online anyways to cut a long story short the current situation im in atm is I have a bad porn addiction, I lose my erection during sex, ive never had a relationship and when I have any kind of sexual encounter I don't actually feel any pleasure when I have sex its like putting my penis in a warm cup of water lol the only feeling of pleasure i get is when I orgasm ive lived like this for the last 5 ish years and im 100% Ive been desensitised by porn (I used to watch it 1-2 hours a day) I have nothing wrong with my penis when I watch porn a can get a nice hard on.

I clearly have quite a few issues as you can tell but it gets worse lol since porn is like a drug the things I watch and fantasise have got more extreme now I know exactly what and who I am and what im attracted to ( im straight) and that is women and femininity but due to my addiction ive gone from normal porn (women) to masturbating over transwomen ,penises being dominated by a man and all sorts of other stuff that I have no attraction to in real life. When It was really bad for me I even tried a guy and a transwoman and it did nothing for me I remember coming home and showering and feeling awful.

Now when I first met the girl I lost my v too I remember sitting there watching porn before I met her and thinking to my self why do I know that when she sucks me off or when I fuck her im not going to get any physical pleasure and sadly I was right all I got was a semi and really not that turned on. Now im only here due to a situation the other day which made me think holy shit I need to clear my head and sort my self out basicly I met a chick who was quite attractive (from tinder) went to hers and could barely get a full hard on the best I got was a semi and just had to give up along with me not being that turned on now I know this is all down to porn because I can watch porn with a rocket and feel VERY horny so im here to start this 90 day no porn and no masturbation so im hoping im going to get some support from you lot as I was in a pretty bad place the other day lol

(Ive also never gone for more than 2 days without porn or masturbating)

Thanks

 

Im also on day 4 of no porn and no masturbating and feeling pretty good about myself im looking to reboot and totally clear my head as this porn addiction over the years has really damaged me mentally.

 

Thanks for the reply as you can tell from what I have said I need to make serious changes in my life.