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I've been struggling with this for a long time. Started for me during a stressful time in fourth year university. I'm now 45. I've been aware from the start that this wasn't healthy for me or for my marriage so have been struggling with abstinence from PM since the beginning. Some periods of success in there (a year, 6 months, many periods of 3 months). Had some recent set backs and its so tough to not get sucked back into that world. Feels like the majority of the day is consumed with not looking at porn. Probably the toughest are the novelty thoughts, like "oh you haven't looked for this before, better just quickly check if there is blah, blah, blah". Anyway I happy to find support as I have mostly just been trying to tough it out on my own.