New here.

Hi guys,
I'm a 33 year old male who just realised I'm addicted to cam girls and have been for about 4 years now. I've previously been addicted to porn since I was 18, also something I've only recently realised.

I just finished what I've told myself will be my last ever cam session. I'm not as deep in the hole as some seem to be on here (thankfully) but a rough guess is I've spent 4.5- 5.5k in the last 4 years and it absolutely sickens me. I mean I'm a relatively decent looking bloke, bit of a gym bunny so in shape, starting to age a little now but in the last 18 months alone I've had 3 girls who are every bit as good looking as these cam girls call themselves my gf. It never lasts. I lose interest. I don't get much stimulation from sex as too used to jacking off. I do get extremely turned on when they jack me off but sex and oral? Really doesn't do much for me. I soon lose desire for them after a few awkward attempts at sex. And I kind of let the relationship drift away. I'm currently saving for a house deposit and I'm half way there but have realised in the last 3 weeks alone I've done 160 quid on camming. Why do I continue this ridiculous and self destructive behaviou?. I'm a relatively attractive guy with a decent enough job and pay. I'm told I'm funny etc and do okay in landing women without even trying that hard tbh

. But it never goes anywhere due to this damm issue. I want to buy a place and move forward in life not throw my hard earned money down the toilet. Sorry for the disjointed message. It's late and I'm venting. I'm going for no fapping and plan of succeeding. Any advice would be welcome.

Regards.