New look on dating

All through high school I was a user of PMO. I always thought to myself that I would pursue a relationship after i overcame my problem with PMO. I thought I wasn't worthy enough. So I didn't date. But recently I have had a mind shift. I think that I a worthy of dating and i am a good person and that in reality dating should be my priority. Porn is bad. Actually having encounters with real girls is good. And no longer am I going to let PMO prevent me from pursuing a real relationship but instead going to let time spent with real people help heal me. That being said I don't think i will ever get married until I can look that girl in the eyes and know that I am 100% dedicated to her and not PMO.
I have my first date in 3 years tomorrow and that was just some stuff i was thinking.