I'm a 35 year old British female and have come to realise I have an addiction to porn but I am desperate to conquer it. It started quite a few years ago when I found out my partner had been paying obscene amounts of money to cam girls. In my jealously/curiosity I started watching these girls, then progressed to soft porn and now it's full blown hardcore extreme porn. When I reflect on the stuff I am watching it disgusts me as it's violent and degrading and yet I find myself going back time and time again. It has been affecting my sex life for around 3 years. I find I have no sensitivity and in order to enjoy sex I am having to turn to drugs but even now that isn't helping and I feel like if I continue down this path I will lose my relationship and won't ever enjoy sex again. It is affecting my daily life. I have a high powered job and so I work long hours but on the weekends I shut myself away to watch porn and masturbate. When I'm not doing this I'm thinking about doing it and it just consumes my whole life. I haven't confided in my partner as I am ashamed; he thinks I go to our room to nap because of my high pressured job. I want to spend my weekends with friends and family, not locked away in my bedroom, bathroom, etc. So I need help and support but I don't even know where to begin!