You've probably heard it all before: but here's my story in a nutshell. 50+ years, married, kids, very successful and in a super respected job. PMO probably daily but at least every other day Nothing deviant just a consistent desire to hunt for very soft stuff. I won't give details as I am sure it's not helpful. No other behaviors/addictions. I'm faithful and a good husband. My job allows me to be very flexible in my time. For example, I don't have to go into work first thing. I can work from home. Guess what I am often doing at 9am on a monday morning? Just writing that sentence is awful to me. I will open up my laptop when the kids are out and my wife runs to the store. Carefully timing my viewing so as to be done before they get back. I lead a double life. On the outside: successful, productive father/ husband who likes music, yoga, hiking.... On the inside: guilt at the huge amount of time I have wasted. My ability to perform with my wife is definitely impacted. But the time - it's hundreds if not thousands of hours of my life wasted - I have to stop. I understand the biology - the endorphines, the reinforcing behavior. But now I have to fight it. That's why I am here.