Until recently my plan was, continue working 8-9 hours a week at a min wage job and living with my parents and going to school. I my goal was, focus on school and as well focus on doing something meaningful. Forget about the money, money is not important, what is important is that I create something amazing and that the whole world can benefit from. Then money will come. Kind of a Steve Pavlina style thought process.
Recently though(nofap+explosive lifts), my process and priorities have started to change.
First I realized that when it comes to women, I want to be able to take the lead. I mean not in everyday situations, but when it comes to having fun with them I now really enjoy a more polarized interaction. Interacting with women has the potential to be more sexual now and when it does it works best when I play the lead and she follows. Just like with dancing but I actually feel the importance of doing this now. It is more sexual and more fun.
Next, I started thing, I think I need to be able to take the lead in my every day life, to be better lead an interaction with a woman to a more intimate place. It just seems natural that I should have a place to bring a girl home to ect ect.
So now, making enough money to support my sexuality, my masculinity, in the moment, has become more important than the long term ideal achievements in some creative way in the future.
I don't think there is anything wrong with this. I mean, it's not like I don't want to achieve something amazing later on in life, I still do. Actually though I feel that this experience and me sharing it with everyone here, is part of my achievement. I guess I don't feel the need to keep projecting into the future all the time. Higher T has given me a desire to have something for right now. I think that is healthier actually. I have future goals but for now I'm not aimless, I have things I want and can do.
It's like I feel the strong need to take responsibility for my present life(my own place, food, ect) but it's not like I'm doing it out of shame. I actually feel a huge urge for this freedom now. I feel I need it to express myself as a sexual being.
Recently though(nofap+explosive lifts), my process and priorities have started to change.
First I realized that when it comes to women, I want to be able to take the lead. I mean not in everyday situations, but when it comes to having fun with them I now really enjoy a more polarized interaction. Interacting with women has the potential to be more sexual now and when it does it works best when I play the lead and she follows. Just like with dancing but I actually feel the importance of doing this now. It is more sexual and more fun.
Next, I started thing, I think I need to be able to take the lead in my every day life, to be better lead an interaction with a woman to a more intimate place. It just seems natural that I should have a place to bring a girl home to ect ect.
So now, making enough money to support my sexuality, my masculinity, in the moment, has become more important than the long term ideal achievements in some creative way in the future.
I don't think there is anything wrong with this. I mean, it's not like I don't want to achieve something amazing later on in life, I still do. Actually though I feel that this experience and me sharing it with everyone here, is part of my achievement. I guess I don't feel the need to keep projecting into the future all the time. Higher T has given me a desire to have something for right now. I think that is healthier actually. I have future goals but for now I'm not aimless, I have things I want and can do.
It's like I feel the strong need to take responsibility for my present life(my own place, food, ect) but it's not like I'm doing it out of shame. I actually feel a huge urge for this freedom now. I feel I need it to express myself as a sexual being.
