Hayat
New Fapstronaut
I'm about to tell you how I ended up here, my life story if you will. It all started in 6th grade. There was this new kid who was very informed in the knowledge of sex and porn. He would tell a group of us all the different ways and types of postitions in sex. Little 11 year old me was disgusted by all this but at the same time very curious. That is when I first heard about porn. At the time I thought it was only for guys but was proved wrong in 7th grade. This was the year my addiction had started. Everyone was talking about it much more than my old school. So I decided to check it out. Went on Instagram, searched it in the tags and found some short 30 second videos. After I "finished" I was ashamed. I cried for about an hour but knew I couldn't say anything to my parents. This was when I realized I had to figure it out for myself. But always one you get a taste of something "good" you naturally want more. So I relied on Instagram for a good year. 8th grade rolled around and I started to use tumblr since the videos were 3-4 minutes long. Still haven't went on any actual porn sites due to my fear that my father would find out. But in 9th grade I heard about a porn website and decided to check it out. Slowly the stuff I would normally watch wasn't appealing to me so I got into Hentai. 10th grade is when I started to notice my problem. I would do it as much as 3 times a day and it killed me. I started to regret ever starting and tried to stop multiple times but it would never work. Now towards the end of the school year and the coming of Ramadan (Islamic holiday) I have decided I'm done with this crap and want to be over this stupid addiction. It makes me feel ashamed and think that I'm a terrible Muslim. So I guess you could say a big factor in my goal to stop is my Religion. Hopefully I'll be able to stop and live a normal life.
