New to NoFap - DE

Discussion in 'New to NoFap' started by J_dogg79, Dec 11, 2017.

  1. J_dogg79

    J_dogg79 New Fapstronaut

    hi all,

    Well this has been a looooong time coming.

    So I’m 38. Started fapping when I was about 12 (started with underwear catalogues, etc then once the internet arrived it was all over with P). I wouldn’t say I was a heavy addict, but i would regularly pmo very day (or other day) for about an hour.

    I’ve had a number of sexual relationships over time. A few LTR. (Probably should also mention I’m gay.) Was married to a wonderful partner for 8 years. And the whole time never really had a satisfying sex life. I’ve become more and more comfortable with sex over time, but it’s always been a challenge to O from intercourse (sex, oral, handjob) and difficult for me to even O with a partner present. Sometimes I feel like it has to do with them “watching me” , pressure to perform, hurry up, etc.

    So fast forward: my marriage has ended (for entirely different reasons), and now I’m back to dating/ having sex again. And this problem of DE persists.

    I’ve been seeing a therapist and we’ve both agreed it may be a good approach to swear off P (which I’m going on 2 weeks now, “sort of”, more on this later), and 1 week no MO.

    After 1 week with no porn, I MO’d. First time was super tough, took me a while. Next two times were significantly easier. But still not as freely as if watching p. Had to reeeaaally concentrate.

    I’m thinking I have a combo of issues: death grip, porn, religious upbringing. The trifecta.

    I guess I have a few questions:

    1) so I mention I’ve sort of stopped porn, being that I haven’t visited a porn site, however I do have hookup apps on my phone, which after exchanging photos/vids I guess can be construed as looking at porn. Is it possible to reboot and still use these apps? I’m def not M or Oing when chatting etc. but I’m wondering if just looking at a few pix elicits dopamine that could be hampering the process.

    2) has anyone had success with hypnotherapy/ sex therapy? My therapist thought it may be something to examine.

    3) do any of you have performance anxiety during sex, of the person looking at you, waiting on you, etc? Or is that just me? Lol.

    4) how long does it take for your dick to return to factory settings after no MO?

    5) do most people fantasize when with their partner? I’ve always wondered this, as during sex I’m invested, aroused, in the moment, really sexually turned on by the person, but when it comes time to O I need to rely on the trusty spank bank to get me there. Often taking a while. A lot of this I feel is because I’m afraid the person will realize I’m fantasizing about someone/something else (even if they’re drop dead sexy) and I feel guilty about it and like I don’t want them to watch me. Weird?

    Any advice welcome.

    Really glad I’m doing this. Shooting (no pun intended) for 30 days no PMO this first go. Wish me luck!

  2. Hi @J_dogg79
    I am glad to see you want to stop your addiction.
    That is a very good idea!
    It's not an easy job, but it will be worth it!
    Good luck and have a good day.
  3. J_dogg79

    J_dogg79 New Fapstronaut

    Thanks Roady!
    Roady likes this.
  4. Cjb1990

    Cjb1990 New Fapstronaut

    I’m in the same boat but with a partner...I’m swearing off P and M but only gettin to O with my man. Not sure if that’s how all this works but always struggled with DE and probably sounds like I’m having similar problems! Good luck to you :)

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