Hi everyone. I've been a lurker for a while and been meaning to start nofap for a long time, but just as most people it's been difficult to get started. I'll share my story and there's a few things that I have questions about, obviously most people here aren't doctors or professionals but honest answers based on experience or knowledge are definitely appreciated. I;ve been a terrible addicted PMO'er ever since I was 12/13, and I'm currently 25. I'd say most days is easily 1-2 per day, but some days were more especially in my younger years. To this day I have 0 problems getting hard, but I definitely O way too fast especially when im with the gf. I barely last 5 seconds. Long story short, for the last 4-5 years I've suffered from pretty severe hypochondria. I blacked out one day from severe dehydration (my own fault) and ever since have had what started as mild anxiety fearing it would happen again or something was detrimentally wrong with me. Up until this day, I notice every little movement/feeling in my body and most the time end up panicking over it unless I can figure out why it's happening rationally and convince myself I'm fine. I've been to numerous doctors/hospitals, the most recent being about 2 months ago and had bloodwork done just to be told I'm perfectly fine and it's just anxiety. Fast forward a bit, to about a month ago. I had a very, very long drawn out edging session while sexting my gf of 2 years (6-7 hours), and finally after M and O, i immediately got severely dizzy, my heart was racing, my ears ringing, and I felt I was going to pass out. Paramedics came and said I was fine, and my blood pressure was slightly elevated due to the stress of the situation but I seemed fine, maybe just slightly dehydrated. I ended up being fine. Just the next week, I did the same thing for about 4 hours, felt fine, and got in my car to drive for my nightjob and about 20 minutes into my drive I started getting the same feeling, ultimately feeling like I was going to pass out and calling paramedics. I was shaking so bad (nerves) I couldn't even walk or stand up. They calmed me down and again I felt normal a few hours later. Ever since the above experiences, when i O, whether it be from PMO or sex with the gf, I immediately feel anxious/panic attack like for an extended time. If i do it a 2nd time in the same day, I become so anxious I can't even function normally. Oddly enough, I feel an immediately burst of motivation to do something like go out and take a run, but about 30 mins-1 hour later I have absolutely zero motivation and I literally feel mentally and physically drained. My physical stamina when running or exercising is literally cut in half, and I feel so out of it I feel like im dying. Fast forward to just this past week, I was feeling pretty good and stuff despite still PMOing once each day or every other day, so I decided to test the waters and PMO twice back to back. I immediately felt the same immense anxiety, could barely finish up my day. A few hours later, I got super shaky/jittery/full of tremors in my hands and fingers if I tried holding something etc. This was 3 days ago, and I'm now on day 2/3 of no PMO at all, hoping to start a lifelong streak just as most people on this forum. That was 3 days ago, and even today I still feel tremors in my hands, and I get shaky throughout the day after a run or physical exertion, or if I don't eat for 5-6 hours which hasn't happened before. My hands feel like they can't stop shaking (physically they aren't shaking that I can tell, also my blood sugar has been perfect every time I've seen a doctor or paramedic.) After reading tons of stories and feedback on NoFap, I'm thinking possibly this has to do with Dopamine and my body is so used to PMO that it's starting to affect my brain and take away from my daily life as I keep feeding it PMO day in and day out. Most times I PMO especially lately, nothing feels good or satisfies me so I ended up edging for 3-4 hours and finally get bored so I just MO to get over with it and feel like shit after. I notice I don't even enjoy sex with the gf as much as I should and almost feel like it's a chore rather than an activity we could really enjoy. (She's a 10/10 in my book, I remember being attracted to her so much when I first met her 2 years ago.) Does anyone else have any similar experiences, or positive thoughts on my situation? I'm really hoping that after a long NoFap streak that hopefully never ends, I'll go back to feeling human again. Could this be a severe lack of dopamine, or maybe a vitamin deficiency that hasn't been found out? I really feel lost, however my anxiety significantly improves each day I dont PMO so this is a start to recovery hopefully.