New to NoFap

Hi there Fapstronauts,
I've been battling my porn addiction ever since I began dating my girlfriend just over a year ago. I guess I had always been in denial about the negative impacts excessive PMO had on my mental, physical health, and overall quality of life. I could spend hours a day moving through countless tabs of photos and/or videos in my room. It became so habitual that if I ever felt the urge, I would almost instantly satisfy it even outside of the privacy of my bedroom or house. I began to decrease my usage of pornography to around once a day, and after a strung up heartbreak I decided that I wasn't ready for a relationship. I decided to embrace the 'hook-up' culture my generation is so immersed in and chat up all the attractive girls I could, and then my long distance friendship with my now girlfriend flourished and I eventually gave in to a long distance relationship with her -- feeling at the time like I would miss out on the life I had begun to create for myself.
However, this girl has opened the world to me, and shown me love like I have never known or seen before. I have a real young woman who loves me more than I could've imagined, and we share so many common interests, morals and life goals. We now live within a kilometre of one another and are studying at the same university. We spend time with each other every day and have been talking about her moving into the share house I'm living in. This is unreal, except I am still struggling to overcome my addiction. I have been able to abstain from pornography for a few weeks to just over a month on a number of occassions, but I haven eventually always given in. Just in the past week I have had my worst rut -- relapse after relapse, I've failed countless times now. I have downloaded a website blocker, but worked my way around it. I've talked myself out of it, and then turned around and done it. I don't really know what I expect from this post, but I would greatly appreciate any advice or criticism I can get. I guess I've been thinking about seeing a councellor again and I really just want to communicate my issue and I feel that to be a part of the NoFap community would really help me with my understanding and motivation.

Sorry for the novel and thanks for reading!
Curtis

 

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