New to the community

Hi everyone,

I just wanted to start a thread with my story and sort of get my feet wet into this support group. I'm a 24 year old guy that is 2 weeks out of a 3 year long relationship. Before I get to the now though it's easiest to back up about 3.5 years ago before that relationship started l. I was 20 and had used porn for about 5 years, but I still felt quite vital sexually. I could have sex, reach orgasm, and instantly be ready to go again like nothing happened. Around the time I started with my recent exgf I knew I could please her so easily and have a great time. However in a moment of crazier sex I suffered a penile fracture, not serious enough for surgery but still enough to put me down for a bit. After that I was sort of gun shy sexually, and I was afraid I was permanently broken. In retrospect I was sort of traumatized but what never failed me getting hard was porn, and I really started to lean on it, bc it was no pressure, it was all about me and I didn't have worry about reinjury or lasting either. Sex with my gf got stale, but did continue, and we had days of better sex than others, but it wasn't he same. I know that this part of the story isn't directly dealing with no pmo, but it is huge in my development and part of why I'm here.

After a year with my gf I moved to graduate school out of state, and the only way I got any was with with my hand and porn. When I moved back our relationship was stale as ever, and I had pushed her away sexually bc of my new insecurities and we ended up breaking up. At this point I figured it was more her then me, and I just needed to find someone else, and that was wrong. Since then I've almost hooked up with two girls and in both cases I couldn't even really get hard, and one was with a girl I've had a secret crush on for years.

The only way I can get hard is through masturbation. I don't *need* porn, and I actually haven't watched it in two weeks, but I do need my left hand. Even then by the time I'm finally very hard it's time to cum and obviously that's a problem. I used to have amazing refraction after orgasm, and could go over and over again. Now I can barely get myself up and my refraction is crap, and I think it's in part to the accident three years ago (the pyscological effects at least), in part due to being single again, but I think at the root of it is porn and masturbation. I'm not old, and I really don't think I'm physically broken, because I have gotten rock hard countless times since my accident, and I just want to be able to pleasure a woman again.

That's my story, and thanks for having me.