New to the forum - Ready to take on the challenge

Hi,

First of all let me apologize if I make english mistakes, it is not my mother tongue.

I'm a French in his 20's and I've known this forum since few month now, but I was in a denial of my pornography and fapping addiction. After some life challenges i've been seriously asking myself what is wrong with me and dig into personal development.

I know that I had this addiction since a very long time now but never thought about it as something wrong or harmful until recently. And I finally admitted to myself and write it in my journal yesterday, before that I had never ever say out loud or write about myself "Yes, I have an addiction".

I also had an experience that I want to share with you guys. Two years ago I had to travel in another country for an academic exchange where porn was illegal and I had a shared room with another student and 0 intimacy. As a result I stayed 5 month without porn and fapping, and during my time there I dated a girl after 3 month without porn and masturbating and for the following month I had a sex life of great quality, better than everything before. That also allow me to feel much better in my daily life, closer to people and more connected.

Yet bad habits have a thick skin as we say in french and once back here I couldn't stop myself.

So I'm here to get rid of it, I hope you guys will be able to help me and I will do my best to help you!