New to the whole "NoFap" thing..some thoughts..

As long as I can remember I've always masturbated, as it was normal and every guy did it right? More into my adult life and over just the past few years I started to notice a decrease in my sexual appetite. I wasn't staying erect for my partners very long, or I would just get tired and give up. I almost NEVER finished, and she began to think it was her, that I wasn't attracted or into sex with her anymore.

I started wondering if I had some kind of ED problem but never wanted to go have it checked out. I also didn't think I had ED because I would still go home and jerk off no problem.. and very often... we're talking sometime 4-6 times a day and almost daily. I watched porn every time as well, and would start getting bored with 'normal' porn and start looking at really messed up or gross porn etc just for a new fix.

Coming back to now, I recently heard about the nofap thing and thought it was just a challenge to see how long you can go, and didn't realize all the benefits of it. I believe that all my sexual problems may be stemmed from all the porn I watch and how often I masturbate. I think that subconsciously I started to compare the women I was with, to porn. I held them to a higher standard sexually, and when what I wasn't getting from them didn't feel like I was "in a porno" I was unsatisfied.

So what I think I have learned:
• I have an extreme porn addiction, and didn't realize it
• Porn has ruined my sexual appetite and sexual relations with women
• I masturbate entirely too much with a very hard death grip, which I've gotten used to so vaginal sex doesn't seem to feel as good.
• Probably a ton more issues have come from this that I haven't realized yet.

Today is my 3rd day of NoFap and I am already going crazy, especially because right now I am single (and have been over a year) and ready to get back into it, but I feel that I will still fall back into my same ways.. so of course I am "on the prowl" for a relationship. I have been constantly trying to keep myself busy and keep my mind off it too.. Right now it's hard because I am between jobs and have all this free time. I start my new job next week though so that will help quite a bit. I'm not sure how long I can keep up the NoFap though.. it seriously is an addiction, similar to drug or alcohol withdrawal..

 

I am making the commitment to myself, and only myself.