New to this community

Honesty time. I found this community by clicking on it while searching NSFW material on Reddit, not knowing what it was at the time. I was reading through it and something just clicked with me that I needed to make a change in my life. I was turning to pornography to help me "cope", when in reality, it was this behaviour that was keeping me down.

I had been in a depressed downward spiral ever since my last girlfriend broke up with me. There were several factors that led up to it, but in the end, I think it all stemmed from this addicitive behaviour. We were trying to wait to have sex until after marriage so I tried coping in the mean time my own ways. I think it changed me as a person from when we had first started dating, when I wasn't doing the thing and thinking about pixelated sex all the time.

I actually started a week ago via Reddit before having a Friday afternoon relapse (in college, idle hands are the tool of the devil). All day Saturday I felt like shit: no energy, no motivation, felt self-conscious and embarrassed. While I hate that I relapsed that quickly, I think I needed it to really see that this is all about and what it can do for your life. Which is why I made an account on the website itself, and not just lurking Reddit. I don't think I was committed before, but now I see this is something I need to do right now. I also find it helpful that I'm not alone. I've tried kicking this habit before, but I think that a commuity and sense of desire to make personal changes in my life was a few of the missing pieces.

This is supposed to be an introduction, so I should probably get more of that on here too. I'm a junior in college, living off campus. I don't have a girlfriend, so that will help in the no-PMO process. I grew up in a conservative, Christian small town, which has made it hard for me to be open about things like this to friends or family. Probably been an addict since 7th grade, so I have a feeling that kicking this habit is gonna be a bitch since I've been at it for so long. Guess I'll just have to keep climbing that mountain, one day at a time!

Anyway, look forward to posting and reading from others on this website!