New to this, I may need some support.

Hello everyone,

I don’t normally post but nothing seems to help get my mind off of porn.

I’m a 24 year old man living in Canada, I started watching porn at the age of 12 (somewhere around that time). I roughly mastubate about once a day, some days are worse than others.

I was a very shy and nervous kid in high school, I wouldn’t talk to anyone, I had friends but rarely talked to them. I was scared to talk to any girl I had a chance with, I used to think a whole lot of negative things of what others thought of me. There were points where I would stay home from school because I simply didn’t want to go. I was an easy target, a lot of kids picked on me. It was not a great time in this point of my life.

Right after I graduated from high school (I was 18 at this time obviously), I fell into a deep depression and I thought about suicide quite often, that’s when my mom got me to go to this counsellor. This is where I started training my mind to think of certain situations in a more positive way. This has helped me so much and I’m so glad that I got to do something like this.

Fast forward a could years, I went to college and took Business Administration and graduated with an accounting degree.

I recently started a relationship with my girlfriend about 7 months ago. I thought I would never get a girlfriend ever. But that’s because I never tried before. So as you can tell I’ve grown so much in the past 6 years!

so that’s where I’m currently at in live now.

Here’s where I need some help:

1. I still watch porn to this day, and I feel like it’s negatively impacting my relationship with my girlfriend. I hate myself for saying this but sometimes I feel like I can do better, but I feel like my brain is hot wired to this mythical view of these adult performers I watch. Also I’m having difficulty finishing with my girlfriend. I kinda like masturbating more than having sex.

If anyone can give any input that would be greatly appreciated.

Sorry for the long story.