New user trying to stop masturbation addiction

Hi Nofap, I'm a 18 year old girl trying to end my addiction to masturbation. (sorry if my English is bad I'm not a native speaker)

I do it way to often sometimes wasting entire weekends doing basically nothing but maturbating. I don't even cum I been maturbating for about six years, multiple times a week, and I've only cummed around 10 times. It only give me momentary pleasure and then afterwards I don't feel satisfied but just left with the guilt of having wasted time.

I've had acne problem since entering puberty at 11 and masturbation obly makes it worse since my skin is hyper sensitive to hormonal changes like masturbation, being on my period and stress. Constant having acne even though it's it severe is hard on my self confidence and it makes me feel really insecure.

Lately I've been feeling really lonely since most of my friends are getting into relationships but I'm all alone. Just before my birthday I was really hard on myself for never even having kissed anyone so I kissed a guy I wasn't attracted to or even liked at a party drunk because I just didn't want to be a unkissed 18 year old. Now I really regret this I wanted my first kiss to be special but wasted it. I'm not a very social person or confident person, all it took for me to kiss that guy was him calling me pretty which only friends and family had done before.

I want to get more control over my life and stop beating down on myself and I feel like stopping maturbating would help me stop constantly think about how I've never been in a relationship and thinking nobody would want to be with me.

 

Thanks, I'll look into it