beetle12345
Fapstronaut
Hello. I’m a new member, and after browsing the forums for a month or so I decided to create an account. I’m very young, hardly a teen, and for a few months I have been starting to develop a strange addiction, so I’m trying everything I can to keep it from getting even worse.
It started around April-June, when I would get triggered by different things I saw and would start “edging”, though at the time I had no clue of what masturbation was. I would just watch videos on YouTube made to bait horny people. The first time it happened was when I got triggered by one of these posted by someone in a group chat. From there it just sort of got worse, very gradually. Horny bait turned into hentai clips, and then to r34 websites and more. Often I just can’t manage to control myself, no matter how many videos I watched explaining the negative effects and the horrible impact it has on your brain.
Now, I’ve noticed that I’m really sensitive about it and I can get triggered by just about anything, and boredom also plays a huge role. While I was at one point able to keep from watching porn for nearly a month, now I’ve been doing it almost every day, though I still don’t masturbate, fortunately. I’ve read a lot of people’s stories and I know that if I let things continue, porn will eat me alive, so I knew I had to come here and get help while it hasn’t seriously hurt me. I’m not sure if I want to start counting the days I’ve abstained from watching porn, but I’ve already been trying to block internet and social media platforms that trigger me (to no avail so far), and I will continue to attempt a hard reset. If anyone has any tips or motivation for my journey ahead, please share them with me.
It started around April-June, when I would get triggered by different things I saw and would start “edging”, though at the time I had no clue of what masturbation was. I would just watch videos on YouTube made to bait horny people. The first time it happened was when I got triggered by one of these posted by someone in a group chat. From there it just sort of got worse, very gradually. Horny bait turned into hentai clips, and then to r34 websites and more. Often I just can’t manage to control myself, no matter how many videos I watched explaining the negative effects and the horrible impact it has on your brain.
Now, I’ve noticed that I’m really sensitive about it and I can get triggered by just about anything, and boredom also plays a huge role. While I was at one point able to keep from watching porn for nearly a month, now I’ve been doing it almost every day, though I still don’t masturbate, fortunately. I’ve read a lot of people’s stories and I know that if I let things continue, porn will eat me alive, so I knew I had to come here and get help while it hasn’t seriously hurt me. I’m not sure if I want to start counting the days I’ve abstained from watching porn, but I’ve already been trying to block internet and social media platforms that trigger me (to no avail so far), and I will continue to attempt a hard reset. If anyone has any tips or motivation for my journey ahead, please share them with me.