Newbie aiming to do 90 day, tomorrow

Im new here on the forum just aiming for the 90 day goal. porn has definitely ruined me and because of it I've gone on sites and seeked out many women. 41 women I've seen. From the Backpage , to more escorting agencies, to the high class models. I spent so much as a college student and was irresponsible with the checks they sent me and spent on these women. I feel completely lonely, tired, and I know for a fact that I'm addicted. Some of these girls got me on their phone
messaging me daily. I don't know if I can trust myself around money anymore, and sometimes when I'm bored I got out to these websites just to see if they have new girls I can check out. I'm a wreck and at the time I started I just wanted something to quell the urges I had from my porn addiction but now porn, plus just going to see escorts has fucked my moral compass up and my decision making has been poor and possibly detrimental to my health. I feel like less of a man then I've ever felt. I want to be better and that's why I joined I'll post everyday to vent about progress here.

 

I'm going to start by posting about my activities on here probably how the day went. I feel like if i can get in a habit of doing that then i should be able to keep my self focused and in a new routine. Keep myself focused on learning a new skill, like i use Udemy a website with a bunch of courses and i've already been using it for awhile so i'll focus on it more to learn how to better 3D model and animate just too keep my mind working and being occupied (although i use it now for getting certifications in the IT/Cyber security field got a test on Friday). I'll also get in the habit of exercising again I'm using Bar stars so i will see how that goes, might get into Yoga.

My mind is weak and is susceptible to porn or sexual content so i need to strengthen my mind.

Right now that's my plan.