Newbie Catholic, on Day 0!

Discussion in 'New to NoFap' started by nwoushdhs, Jan 7, 2019.

Are you Catholic, Non-Catholic Christian, or other?

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  1. nwoushdhs

    nwoushdhs New Fapstronaut

    Greetings to you all in Christ, especially those of you who are Christian. If not, greetings nonetheless! I come here at 10:30 at night in desperation after this morning I was very close to suicidal and had a porn incident this evening.

    I am a 16-year old male. I've been using porn since I knew it existed... somewhere around the age of 9 or 10, when Santa first got me a Kobo (cue the unnecessary arguing about Santa's existence lol). I used it to satisfy my foot fetish and my torture fetish.

    A few years ago, I found out one night, after trying to search for new ways to masturbate, that it in fact was a sin in the eyes of the Catholic Church. I've been a committed Catholic all my life and the amount of guilt this caused was unbelievable. I started a routine of going to confession once a week or more (which caused ridiculous scrupulosity, and, more importantly, didn't do anything to help me stop, though a great gift in itself). At the request of my spiritual director, I was invested in the Brown Scapular of Our Lady of Mount Carmel this past summer. Wearing it has actually helped me get through longer periods of time, but not much. I try to pray a Rosary every day as well.

    More discouragement stems from the fact that I would one day like to become a Catholic priest, but in all of this it will be impossible for me to be accepted to any seminary, let alone be ordained. The last thing I want is to end up like the priests who have been caught abusing children.

    Today is Day 0, as the title clearly suggests. I don't know what my parameters are going to be, but for now, I'm going to try at least a week. I've been able to do it before, although not often. That will slowly and surely expand. I will need all your support, and please pray for me if you are religious. I would appreciate it.

    Thanks so much!

    P. S. Sorry if you don't understand all of the faith stuff, I know it's very loud in this intro but I felt it was necessary to include it all.
  2. Septimus

    Septimus Fapstronaut

    Welcome! I'm glad you're here, and Merry Christmas!

    There are many Catholics here, you are not alone. And you can overcome the habits of porn and masturbation; and therefore, if you are interested in being a priest, I would think overcoming these habits would make you a better one.

    There is a lot of good information and wisdom here, I encourage you to tap into it. Keep coming back!
  3. I am non-catholic at the moment but understand a lot about the Roman Catholic Faith and its doctrines. I was delivered of porn addiction about 5 years ago by the power of God and have never returned to viewing porn. God can heal and save you. Be encouraged.

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