Newbie here. First post.

Discussion in 'New to NoFap' started by Fo2n8, Oct 17, 2019.

  1. Fo2n8

    Fo2n8 Fapstronaut

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    Whew. I’m a little scared to start.
    Okay. Here goes.
    I’m a 24 yo male.
    I have been addicted to porn for 13 years and masturbating for a bit before that.
    Went to college and both it got worse. I have developed fetishes that I’d never thought I would find myself enjoying. Most of my perceptions of sex and relationships are built on how I reacted to porn, how I expect people to act during sex in real life and how I imagined sex would be like.
    I am naturally curious and love to find new things and this is the thrill of finding new/disturbing/disgusting things that I’d never seen before except in porn that kept me coming back.
    I’m presently a medical student and I have researched pornography extensively with myself as a test case. I was finally able to distinguish my triggers and even after all of that work, I’m still watching and masturbating.
    I started masturbating to the mental images of my female friends in college and that was a catalyst for me to realize that I needed help. I do not even know when or how I started with that, I would meet that person afterwards in social circles and thé guilt and disgust would wash over me like a cold shower. My studies and personal relationships have suffered and I almost lost everything at a point . I have slowly lost my self-esteem and I used to be so lively and high-functioning but now, I have so little energy.
    I have tried everything I can think of to stop. I have timed myself with increasing periods of abstinence of 1 hr> 1/2 day> 1 day> 1 week. I always lose before the week ends.
    I’m joining the Nofap community in the hope that I can have the environment to sustain a long period of discipline. What do you know...my story could help other people just I theirs would help me.
    The lack of discipline stemming from chronic self-defeating thoughts, no matter what I achieve, has stagnated my life and I take full responsibility.
    I have also taken it up to work through this.
    I will start ‘The Shinobi Challenge’ because I’m an otaku :) and the parameters (I’m already using Nofap slang lol) are in line with my current (failed) regimen and all I’ll have to do is make a modification or two and hopefully, with this environment of people who are like me and some of us who are proof of the fact that it is possible to let go of this damaging habit, I’ll be free.
    Okay then. I guess that’s it.
     

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  3. Fo2n8

    Fo2n8 Fapstronaut

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    Done
     
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  4. Zer01991

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    Stay strong buddy. You got this. First few days are hard. Trust me. But you are stronger than your thoughts and impulses. Stay committed and you can beat it. You can and will become a better version of yourself. I too crept into the darker side of things. Cuckolding was a big one for me and the thing is I'm disgusted at the fucking thought of it. But each day will get easier and with each passing day of you winning and fighting, the weaker your thoughts and impulses will get. Your sex drive will be a fucking rollercoaster for a bit but just fight man!
     
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  5. Tiger uppercut!

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    Hello and welcome! :)

    We are glad to have you as a part of our community. Here are some quick links to get you started.

    Getting Started Guide | How to Use the NoFap Forums | Panic Button | Day Counter | Rebooting Resources | Forum Rules | Glossary

    If you wish to keep a journal of your progress you can do so in the appropriate section found here

    You can also take part in one of the many challenges available. It can be a tremendous help. Challenges

    Also, there are groups you can also join if you wish to do so. You can browse through them here. Groups

    There are plenty of wonderful, friendly and knowledgeable people here to help you along on your journey to a life free of PMO. I wish you nothing but the best!
     
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  6. rafael33

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    Welcome to the Nofap community.
    The NO PMO journey is not easy but worth the effort.
    The community will support you.

    You made the habit and you can break the habit.
    I don’t consider it as a matter of discipline, I consider it more as a matter of what you are focusing on. Focus on what you really want: true happiness.
    You can only become truly happy when there are no addictions anymore. You can’t imagine how strong you really are. And yes - here is an environment which supports your ambitions to get free.
     
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  7. Fo2n8

    Fo2n8 Fapstronaut

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    Y’all thanks for your words of welcome and encouragement.
    Let’s do this!!!!
     
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  8. Fo2n8

    Fo2n8 Fapstronaut

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    Whoa I’m back.
    After starting and breaking off about 3 or 4 times, I’ve decided to take my commitment to a complete Reboot further by posting a daily log.
    Can’t wait to come back and read this post in a few months and realize how far I’ve come.
    Okay. Let’s do this.
     
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  9. Fo2n8

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    Today was ok.
    I’m making changes in other areas my life and luckily, today is the first day in my counter.
    I had no urges whatsoever but it’s akways been like that. They kick in around the fifth day and that’s when it becomes really hard.
    That’s it then. First journal log update.
     
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  10. Fo2n8

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    Day deux.
    It was okay. I was not able to accomplish everything I set out to do and I realized that my frustration over not been able to meet my goals is one of the justifications I use to fap.
    Thankfully, I received a reality check and got back in stride.
    The funny thing is that even though I was almost close to fapping, the fact that I was able to stop myself was such a great feeling and it pushed me to get work done.
    That’s it. I’m definitely going to update this log everyday from now onwards.
     
  11. Fo2n8

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    I’m not sure what’s going on with the counter but it’s a day behind. My ocd will not allow me to be on different days when the counter is behind. I don’t want to touch the counter as well. I guess I will just continue counting tomorrow.
    Anyways, I was so busy today that I did not have any urges. Yasssss.
    Okay then. Let’s see what today brings.
     
  12. Fo2n8

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    Day 4
    No urges today. The urges usually explode on Day 5 so I guess things are about to get interesting.
     
  13. xetevar

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    Awesome start! Keep the focus - it can be done - and YOU CAN do this. And all I can say is it really is WORTH IT! What is your goal for this streak?
     
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  14. RamboErecto

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    Welcome to the last stand!
     
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  15. Fo2n8

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    Day 5
    I MADE IT!!!!!!!!!!!!
    For the first time, I’ve actively/intentionally worked to get to five days clean. Not just getting here by accident when I get busy and don’t have time to fap.
    Dang. Such a rush.
    Next stop: 10 DAYS!!!!
    Whoop whoop!
     
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  16. Fo2n8

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    Day 6
    Dunno. I thought I’d feel a burst of excitement or something but I feel nothing. It’s like I do not feel any urges. It was beginning to scare me when I remembered I was ‘flatlining’. I actually enjoy it.
    It’s so good that there are these things that so many people from all over the globe have experienced and can provide a wealth of information on. Quite humbling
    Next Stop: Day 10!!!
    Whoop whoop!!!
     
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  17. xetevar

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    You are going to make this! Remember if you are anything like me you will be all over the place feeling-wise. My shit doesn't start to really settle down until after about 30 days or so, but by then I'm feeling so good it just doesn't matter. Oh, still 'feel the need' sometimes but just focus your mind on something else and keep on.

    You can do this! 10 days you will make!
     
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  18. zoocytium

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    I started NoFap 6 days ago and feeling good. Finding something to do with the "down time" is a bit of a challenge, but I find something (other than PMOing) to do. Work lately has been busy and tends to keep my mind off browsing the internet for content. Sometimes I would see a pic of a woman I find appealing and then try to find some better images of her, which usually ends up transitioning to other hot women and more time wasted. The internet is evil! Fapping since about age 13 to my brothers Playboy's and SportsIllustrated Swimsuit Editions. Then the internet came around... I went paperless! Saving the trees, but not me. I feel that I cannot maintain a relationship since when I am around a woman of interest, I do not become sexually motivated with her regardless of how attractive I think she is. Erections are not as solid and most times cannot start the job, so frustration sets in and I avoid meeting women due to that. My hand is always there, internet too. I have a prescription for V!agra, but feel I should not need that at my age. I need to grow up and get over this. Mind over matter.

    During my Reboot, if I have urges, I will do my best to work through them. My personal strategies are to workout, walk it off, or to come here and vent.

    Good luck all!
     
  19. xetevar

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    Every EJ (ejaculation) you prevent/abstain from makes you that much stronger! I say EJ because O and EJ, even though they usually occur close together, can be separated (with a f**kton of work) and are distinctly different events. The big thing for us is to eliminate as many EJs as we can as we heal. Work hard and ride up that curve to feeling AWESOME! I'll keep saying it - for whatever reason NOT EJing for like 3 weeks (for me as an old fart) gets you to a level of feeling so amazingly alive that you start to question wanting to break the spell by 'falling off the wagon'. It is that good. It really is THAT GOOD abstaining. It's just the we have never as males not just EJd less that a few days so we never had a chance to experience the feeling of going long enough to ride up the curve.

    You can do it, and PLEASE DO so I can watch as you post your experiences as you experience what I think is the second most amazing thing you can experience as a male.
    x
     
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  20. Fo2n8

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    Laa dee fn da.
    The urges hit like a train just a few minutes ago and.....I almost....I literally had the site open and I thought “lemme pass by my reboot thread for a sec”. Came up here and read all the posts, mine and the words of encouragement, and I ran back to close the site.
    I’m going to beat this.
    I mean, it’s weird that I’m writing all of this on the public internet but I’ve tried everything else I can think of and it never worked. I’m going all in this time.
    I’m going to beat this.
    I’m going to get out of this prison.
    Can’t wait to get to 10 days.
    For real.
    Can’t wait.
     

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