Newbie in need of support and advice

Hey, so, I have been here before years ago and the community was helpful, I just clearly wasn’t ready to truly rid myself of porn once and for all.

Fast forward to now and I have just destroyed my girlfriend of 10 months self-esteem and confidence that she had slowly been building since she has had bad relationships in the past. (I’ll refer to my partner as B from now)

I had a week off of work and during that time over several nights when B was asleep and I had stayed up to play games, the addiction that B had helped me to keep at bay, came rearing it’s ugly head once again and I was watching porn once more.

B praised me for being roughly 10 months clean of porn today and that’s when I told the truth. B was understandably upset and I never want to do anything to make her sad, so that’s why I am here.

I need to change. I am so lucky my partner is so supportive of me. That HAS to be the last time I ever look at porn. Watching it made me feel so guilty and filled with shame and then seeing B so torn apart by my actions has only reinforced my will to stay abstinent. I have made a promise that I will never look at porn again and I will keep that promise. I just need a little more help.