Newbie on Nofap-Struggle against myself for myself

karanchapaneri

karanchapaneri

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Hi guys,
I joined Nofap recently & I've had conversations with some of the members here. It's good to be here!
So, going into hindsight,here's my story:
I started when I was 18, late as compared to some of you, thanks to connectivity issues & good home atmosphere.Sweet Home Sweet!
But,as I left my home for my college, rifts started to appear in my brain. Initially, I used to be very sad after acting out & punish myself really hard for doing something that was kind of impure. By making myself sad, I used to get that reason that would aid my studies. Every time I was little distracted,I used porn for getting that attention to redirect me. I crawled through like this for sometime.

Then, after some time even that remorse & regret would be gone. Hell now, what do I do? How do I redirect myself to studies? There was no answer. I was feeling brainless.Like on the outside.Even this type of myself carried through the time.
Now, when heights of mediocrity & non performance was rising at it peaks, I couldn't contain myself. I did 4 times in a row a day. I feel like I'm paying for this behavior of non performance.

Now its high time to quit as I almost finish my graduation. I've people asking me for my downfall indirectly & making fun of me, giving me zero-to-fraction of attention,making me feel like I didn't exist. I couldn't tell anyone my reason.

Hoping for someone to hear me out & accompany me.
 
Every now & then I'm made to feel that I do not exist. I'm just excluded, no where into. I'm in nobody's favorite's list.
There seems to be only parasites around me.
 
karanchapaneri said:
Every now & then I'm made to feel that I do not exist. I'm just excluded, no where into. I'm in nobody's favorite's list.
There seems to be only parasites around me.
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Allow this site to be an escape from the foes around you. You matter and you will only become better. We will help you as much as we can. We cannot do it for you but you won't be alone while you do it.
 
Frühlingstimme said:
I'm doing NoFap to focus on my studies. I have been puting studies aside a bit, but at least I'm not fapping. Point for me (or no)
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karanchapaneri said:
Hi guys,
I joined NoFap recently & I've had conversations with some of the members here. It's good to be here!
So, going into hindsight,here's my story:
I started when I was 18, late as compared to some of you, thanks to connectivity issues & good home atmosphere.Sweet Home Sweet!
But,as I left my home for my college, rifts started to appear in my brain. Initially, I used to be very sad after acting out & punish myself really hard for doing something that was kind of impure. By making myself sad, I used to get that reason that would aid my studies. Every time I was little distracted,I used porn for getting that attention to redirect me. I crawled through like this for sometime.

Then, after some time even that remorse & regret would be gone. Hell now, what do I do? How do I redirect myself to studies? There was no answer. I was feeling brainless.Like on the outside.Even this type of myself carried through the time.
Now, when heights of mediocrity & non performance was rising at it peaks, I couldn't contain myself. I did 4 times in a row a day. I feel like I'm paying for this behavior of non performance.

Now its high time to quit as I almost finish my graduation. I've people asking me for my downfall indirectly & making fun of me, giving me zero-to-fraction of attention,making me feel like I didn't exist. I couldn't tell anyone my reason.

Hoping for someone to hear me out & accompany me.
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First of all welcome and respect for making the commitment to quit this!!

You know that it's time to turn your life around and that's what you are doing!

You GOT THIS!!! Just make a goal and share it with us.. Share it all with us, ups, downs , feelings.. We're here for each other!

UNITED WE STAND!
 
Frühlingstimme said:
I'm doing NoFap to focus on my studies. I have been puting studies aside a bit, but at least I'm not fapping. Point for me (or no)
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Fruhlingstimme, so weird how there is always someone else who is sharing what you're giong through. It helps so much to know this.

Since I've joined Nofap, I have been putting studies aside too, but I know that by taking care of this, I will come back SO STRONG!! I WILL WIN, I am just getting my tools ready :) I KNOW YOU WILL TOO!
 
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Hello there, I am having problems with concentration, I guess. It came off today as I was writing my exam paper and I was continuously distracted. I am not getting mind speed, you know. It's very slow processing going in there. I studied since last couple of days, but I was dithering at the paper. Considerable urges at shooting at me at regular intervals. I see flashes of abandoned videos, & I get try to lose sight of it. Any Help?
 
Your addicted mind is trying to remind you of what you are missing, although you know it isn't healthy for you. Do not give in to it.

Although you are moving slowly, you are still moving. Keep moving!
 
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