Hello everyone, I'm new to Reddit and this community. I'm a 20 year old male with a lust addiction who just lost another battle like 2 hours ago. I've never been in a group like this before and I know it isn't the same as being in an in-person group, but I'm going to give this a try.
I called my addiction a 'lust' addiction because I'm addicted to the adrenaline rush and lustful emotions that surge through your brain, I'm guessing that's the dopamine, when you first think about and then start acting on the craving. The girls and the porn and all that play roles too, but I could honestly keep doing the same stuff without watching any type of porn. For me it's all about the fun and adrenaline and stress relief.
I want to get past this because I know it's wrong, conscientiously, but also to be a good man for my future spouse and all of humanity. I don't want to stop just because someone told me to, or because it's sin (yes, I am a Christian trying my best to be a true son/man of God), but sometimes, actually most of the time, besides knowing it's wrong in my conscience, I often just plain forget why it's wrong because I've been wrapped up in lust's evil grasp since I was 12 and have just over the past 4 years been unlearning what I never was taught was wrong.
There's the who, why, what, how, and when of my situation. If you made it this far, don't feel obligated to reply just for encouragement because I'd rather have 1 friend who's all in devoted in supporting me than 999 others who just say "you can do it, I believe in you", or something like that. If you really, really care, then I welcome you.
I called my addiction a 'lust' addiction because I'm addicted to the adrenaline rush and lustful emotions that surge through your brain, I'm guessing that's the dopamine, when you first think about and then start acting on the craving. The girls and the porn and all that play roles too, but I could honestly keep doing the same stuff without watching any type of porn. For me it's all about the fun and adrenaline and stress relief.
I want to get past this because I know it's wrong, conscientiously, but also to be a good man for my future spouse and all of humanity. I don't want to stop just because someone told me to, or because it's sin (yes, I am a Christian trying my best to be a true son/man of God), but sometimes, actually most of the time, besides knowing it's wrong in my conscience, I often just plain forget why it's wrong because I've been wrapped up in lust's evil grasp since I was 12 and have just over the past 4 years been unlearning what I never was taught was wrong.
There's the who, why, what, how, and when of my situation. If you made it this far, don't feel obligated to reply just for encouragement because I'd rather have 1 friend who's all in devoted in supporting me than 999 others who just say "you can do it, I believe in you", or something like that. If you really, really care, then I welcome you.
