Nextians Journal

Day 203

Today is travel day! We are going to be in a location 2.5h away from home to sleep and being early up the day after for the TV show production.

Yesterday my wife reminded me that I should concentrate on my therapy rather than on the course at work (which is self paced learning). It is unfortunate that I need to be reminded about that - this is what I mean with:
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Normally I struggle with showing some signs of hyperfocus ADHD, but I currently really cope good with it - I am thankful for that.
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After having a second thought about it, turns out, I don't. :( Anyhow, I won't start to give it a name but working on setting my priorities right.

Today I am thankful for:
My intoxicating good mood! I have been in a great mood since I got up this morning, put up a playlist with 'good mood songs' and danced around. The joy took over my wife and she is in a good mood as well (even though she is a little scared about the TV show thing).

Today I hope for:
A good trip, a nice evening and not too much stress during the day. I hope that I can concentrate on my post-therapy-session work.

Have a good day everybody!
 
Day 204

Another short post. We are at the TV show production currently - it's funny here, nice people everywhere.

Today evening checking in at the hotel and thinking about getting some food somewhere.

Today I am thankful for:
Having the opportunity to be a part of this makes me proud and thankful.

Today I hope for:
A 'good' show! :)

Have a good day everybody!
 
Day 205

It. Was. Awesome. Cannot really talk about it as we signed a contract to keep quiet.

Quite boring until the evening when stuff happened so quickly I cannot even remember everything, but just positives! We had an awful lot of fun and the day was great. Fell asleep almost instantly after touching the hotel bed. :)

I am thankful for my wife today, she shows me what courage and authenticity looks like.

Today I hope for a good shopping trip and a nice board game evening at friends of us. :)

Have a good day everybody!
 
Day 207

What a weekend. Pretty exhaustive but good overall :) The board game evening was pure chaos with negative vibes from the folks who invited us as they are going through a tough time in their relationship it seems.

Yesterday we traveled back home and went dancing in the afternoon - dancing lessons are back on the menu, whoop! :)

I fixed our garden fence without even really knowing what to do and I am proud of it, I like to fix stuff haha.

Today I am thankful for my wife asking me on the weekend if I want to join her showering. We are heading in the right direction and this is something I am thankful for as well!

Today I hope for a good shopping trip with my best man and a lot of laughter with him as we had recently been dumped by his GF. So I hope we can cheer him up a little. :)

Have a good day everybody!
 
Day 208

Office day! Concentrating on my course today, therapy session after work and going to get some groceries after that. Our fridge is pretty empty and because of the exhaustive past days we didn't really manage to fill it haha.

Thankful for my drive to get the course certificate and to learn!

Hope for a good therapy session and no traffic jams to or from it.

Have a good day everybody!
 
Day 209

Tomorrow evening we will travel to Czech Republic. Not for pleasure! Attending a congress in Prague which is quite cool. Looking forward to it!

Very short one today, got something in the oven haha.

Have a good one everybody!
 
Day 210

Had a rough night. Dreamed about crap and just didn't sleep well. Guess I need a nap during the day to catch up...
A lot to do today still prior to travels.

Yesterday we cooked dinner for us. We tried something new that we haven't done before and it went really well. Has been tasty as hell!

Therapy session was great. It seems that I cannot really name feelings I get because I don't really know them by name - very interesting.

I am thankful for my wife telling me that I turn her on and that I look good. :)

I hope for save travels and not too much traffic as well as parking and the hotel goes well.

Have a good day everybody!
 
Day 211

We had a good day at the congress - very cool, informative and great to see everyone again!
Went to the pub with quite a bunch of folks and had some beers and a fantastic time.

No going to sleep to have power for tomorrow :)

I am thankful to have such a trusty community around me. Knowing that I can come or call anytime to talk about everything is worth a lot.

I hope that my wife will get more sleep than yesterday - she had a hard day today.

Have a good night everybody!
 
Day 212

Beautiful weather that was today! Cold, but very sunny :) And another fantastic day at the congress ended. Very informative and simply wholesome sometimes. I enjoyed every minute so far!

We had a 'party' in the evening today, organized by the folks who run the congress - was great, and I am very thankful for overcoming a small anxiety to dance in front of folks. My wife joined me, that was awesome.

I hope for a good amount of sleep to be honest, I am pretty tired now.

Have a good night everyone!
 
Day 214

The last day of conference yesterday was great - very emotional. I allowed myself to shed some tears as they came which has been a thing my therapist said I shouldn't hide, so I didn't and got support immediately. Loved that, being vulnerable in a place with good people is not as bad as I thought it would be lol.

Travel home was easy but we have been very very tired after the busy weekend and the long drive. So no post yesterday as we fell in bed immediately after we got home.

I am thankful to keep my good and productive mood even though my better half is not in the best of moods, that is a small milestone for me as it back in the days it felt like I need to mirror her mood and emotions, but I learned. :)

I hope to be even more productive and the dentist appointment of my wife goes well.

Have a good day everybody!
 
Day 215

Office day today and therapy session. Hard one to be honest - not even really sure why yet, will figure that out in the next days. Possibly because things slowly seems to come down to my father.

Other than that I really get along in my course and get into thinking again which makes me feel incredible. Such small things can sometimes feel so right :)

I could say I am sorry to use this journal as my diary, but I am not actually. I can only recommend to journal about everything what is going on, on your mind, bugging you. Whatever it is leave it here and check back from time to time. It's like a gratitude journal if you go back in time.
Just to have it said here somewhere: Still going strong without PMO - even though it gets tougher and tougher as my wife just looks stunning.
But I still know what I have done us, to her, to me. I know that I need to keep on pounding to not loose myself again.

Today I am thankful for:
It feels like I really progress, personally and emotionally.

I hope for a good evening with cuddles and a good portion of that precious sleep which is quite rare these days.

Have a good day everybody!
 
Day 216

Shorty today - today is one of the rare days without any appointments! I can concentrate on my course and on things that needs to be done in the flat.

Thankful for the fantastic weather, it's still cold but we are getting there slowly.

I hope my mood changes to a good one today.

Have a good day everybody!
 
Day 217

Weird day yesterday. My mood didn't really got better until the evening when my wife cheered me up. Couldn't get out of that 'meh' and I don't even know why - maybe just a bad day.

Today will be different! We have a dancing lesson this evening and possibly today (crossing fingers) we get our new fridge! Finally! After endless discussions with our landlord.

I am thankful for the birds singing here. Back in the days I haven't payed attention to that beautiful sign that spring is near, and now I listen to it every single morning and I love it.

Hoping for a fantastic day with my wife, hope she doesn't catch that cold she is about to. Hope for a great dancing lesson with lots of laughs.

Have a good day everybody!
 
Day 218

We had a great day yesterday. Dancing lesson has been fantastic, we learned a new figure - I can't wait for the next lesson. That's really something I enjoy a lot. Didn't expect it to be THIS cool.

We FINALLY have our new fridge - it's awesome, so modern haha.

Went some grocery shopping and cuddled on the couch afterwards :) Other than that nothing really happend, which is good I think.

I am so thankful for the warm weather currently, this Friday will be the warmest day so far!

I hope for a good, productive day with a lot of love and laughter.

Have a good day everybody!
 
Day 219

I woke up being cuddled :) What a fantastic way to start the day. My best man and me are going for a sushi course today - we will learn how to do it ourselves. We love sushi.

Yesterday has been very much productive, I actually am close to finishing my course earlier than expected and only need to do fine-tuning now for my 'masterpiece'! Had a great evening with cuddles and trash TV, love it.

I am thankful for spring really. It's not as cold anymore and that puts a smile on my face, as well as the birds singing for us.

Hope for a fun day at the Sushi place with my best man and that the weather stays as mild as it is (or getting warmer haha).

Have a good day everybody!
 
Day 220

Chores day - nothing much happened today. But we have a clean flat again whoop! Woke up horny af today but all went well and no acting out - I even told my wife and she said that she noticed haha.

I am thankful for having the big chores part done and cuddles on the sofa now! :)

I hope for a good amount of sleep, tired as hell!

Have a good day everybody!
 
Day 221

Getting sick. Meh. Hate that - productivity shifts to being a lazy fck. At least it feels like that.
Wifey supports me and is the absolute cutest.

Still fine tuning in my course - soon to be finished!

I am thankful for my wife trying to educate me in woman right and equality, where it seems I am too 'mate white privilege'.

Hope for getting better over night!

Have a good day everybody!
 
Day 222

Called in sick today - no point in trying to concentrate. I haaaate being sick. Meh.

I hope to be on the mend until Thursday as we have our next dancing lesson upcoming.

I am very thankful for the care my wife gives me even though she as well is sick.

Hope to get better soonest!

Have a good day everybody!
 
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