I never had any true friends in real life. I'm very bad at socialising, I was never good at it. I've had "friends" when I was in school but they never cared about me, especially after school. Not a single text or phone call, not a single visit. I was very lonely and sadly that hasn't changed. Socialising is almost a mystery to me. I don't know how to start a conversation and I don't know where to meet new people. I don't like being lonely, yet it seems like it's the only option. In a way, I'm scared of socialising since I didn't do it a lot. I always overthink everything and constantly think about the impression I give off. I rarely have any occasion to socialise too. What can I do about this? How can I stop being so frightened of socialising?