No one will ever be on their death-bed wishing they watched more porn

Hi all, I'm 28, living in England, starting NoFap after 10 years of letting porn be too big a part of my life!

I started watching porn when i got a laptop just before going to Uni, made it all too easy to keep it a secret from anyone else and then present a completely normal face to the rest of the world. I have watched porn regularly on and off ever since, with all the negative effects you will be familiar with.

In the last 2 years I started keeping a journal with the idea of generally improving myself (lifting / learning languages / working on a career) which has been really useful - I have tracked not just what i have done, including when i watched porn/masturbated but also my thoughts and feelings, particularly using it to 'clear my head' when i have had too many thoughts buzzing round it.

As a result of this journal and starting reading about porn's effect on the brain, I realised how much time i had poured into this secretive, destructive, antisocial, anxiety-forming porn habit, and how much of an effect it must have had on me in the last 10 years. I realised how difficult it would be to become the more sociable, outgoing, successful person that i wanted to be without tackling this 'root cause' as i see it. This scared me - I thought I had fucked my brain up for life! I also feel a sense of loss for what i could have achieved if i had put all those hours over all those years to good use instead of mindless PMO. I could have mastered a whole new musical instrument, or a whole new language, or written several short stories, or anything.

So when I read on about nofap, rebooting and getting my brain back to normal it was a no-brainer (ha!) and i knew what i had to do. I want to quit porn to undo the damage i have done to my brain and to instead form new productive habits. I want to try new sports. I want to meet new people and expand my circle of friends. I want to have a wife and kids. I want to look back on my life when i'm old and think I did everything in my power to fill it with good memories and achievements.

No one will ever get to their death-bed and wish they had spent more time looking at porn. And i figure whilst it sucks to think of time wasted in my life, the best time to change my situation is now.

Hope for your encouragement and I'll be cheering you all on as well. Stay strong.