BouncingBackToLife
New Fapstronaut
Hello,
I have been reading lots of encouraging posts here and I hope I will get help here.
My story:
I was exposed to intense pornography and masturbation for 13years - (from 15 - 28years). I am 32 now.
As a young boy, my system was extremely active. I had spontaneous erections everywhere without needing to see or think of something enticing.
Then came PM.
After some years PMing, I started noticing some changes that I couldn't explain. I needed more arousal for real Sex and even masturbation. My Penis started losing strength. I didn't stop. I continued.
Till one day, one morning, when I PMed, I noticed that my ejaculate was so watery and empty. I became scared. Scared to the bone. From that day on, I quit pornography and masturbation. The fear didn't allow me try it again.
But the damage has been done:
I went to the hospital to see a doc, the doctor requested I do a hormone test. My Testosterone came out so low (3.9) and my prolactin so high. (28).
At this point these are the symptoms I experience :
1. Low interest in sex
2. Reduced sensitivity to Sexual stimulus
3. Weak early morning erection
4. Problem sustaining erection for long.
My doctor wasn't very knowledgeable in this area hence he wasn't of much help. He referred me to testicular scan (I don't know why). Results came out good. He was considering placing me on prolactin drugs but wasn't sure if that will help.
Then, I bumped on Nofap. I took the whole advice. Already I had stopped PM. I also stopped watching music videos, anything and everything Sexual, improved my diet and all.
After 3 months of no Sex, no pm, I felt great. Morning boners was great. I then got a girlfriend.this is the beginning of my real problem.
With no sort of drug or enhancement, I could last over an hour and can go upto three times daily. I felt good. Till one day, I relapsed. I barely lasted two minutes and I felt different. Getting back on was hard. This happened in Dec 2015 and I am yet to bounce back since then.
From 2016 - 2017, I've had no PM but I've been exposed to Sex a couple of times.Five times in 2017 and a number of romantic activities.
Last year Dec (2017), I decided to stay clear all appearances of Sex. I started getting better slowly and gradually. Till yesterday, my gf visited and we kissed deeply. I hard normal erection during the kiss. Subsequently, it felt like I lost something. I woke up without the usual boner that I was just recovering. Now, it seems any minute exposure sets me back.
My challenge :
1. What can I do to recover fully?
2. Is there anyway I can help my system recover faster
3. How can I restore my hormonal balance.
Your responses are deeply needed and appreciated.
I have been reading lots of encouraging posts here and I hope I will get help here.
My story:
I was exposed to intense pornography and masturbation for 13years - (from 15 - 28years). I am 32 now.
As a young boy, my system was extremely active. I had spontaneous erections everywhere without needing to see or think of something enticing.
Then came PM.
After some years PMing, I started noticing some changes that I couldn't explain. I needed more arousal for real Sex and even masturbation. My Penis started losing strength. I didn't stop. I continued.
Till one day, one morning, when I PMed, I noticed that my ejaculate was so watery and empty. I became scared. Scared to the bone. From that day on, I quit pornography and masturbation. The fear didn't allow me try it again.
But the damage has been done:
I went to the hospital to see a doc, the doctor requested I do a hormone test. My Testosterone came out so low (3.9) and my prolactin so high. (28).
At this point these are the symptoms I experience :
1. Low interest in sex
2. Reduced sensitivity to Sexual stimulus
3. Weak early morning erection
4. Problem sustaining erection for long.
My doctor wasn't very knowledgeable in this area hence he wasn't of much help. He referred me to testicular scan (I don't know why). Results came out good. He was considering placing me on prolactin drugs but wasn't sure if that will help.
Then, I bumped on Nofap. I took the whole advice. Already I had stopped PM. I also stopped watching music videos, anything and everything Sexual, improved my diet and all.
After 3 months of no Sex, no pm, I felt great. Morning boners was great. I then got a girlfriend.this is the beginning of my real problem.
With no sort of drug or enhancement, I could last over an hour and can go upto three times daily. I felt good. Till one day, I relapsed. I barely lasted two minutes and I felt different. Getting back on was hard. This happened in Dec 2015 and I am yet to bounce back since then.
From 2016 - 2017, I've had no PM but I've been exposed to Sex a couple of times.Five times in 2017 and a number of romantic activities.
Last year Dec (2017), I decided to stay clear all appearances of Sex. I started getting better slowly and gradually. Till yesterday, my gf visited and we kissed deeply. I hard normal erection during the kiss. Subsequently, it felt like I lost something. I woke up without the usual boner that I was just recovering. Now, it seems any minute exposure sets me back.
My challenge :
1. What can I do to recover fully?
2. Is there anyway I can help my system recover faster
3. How can I restore my hormonal balance.
Your responses are deeply needed and appreciated.