No self control thx to PMO

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  1. Jonny1992

    Jonny1992 Fapstronaut

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    Hi guys,

    As many of us, I am addicted to porn! And I have a problem that worries me a lot!

    When I know, I can watch porn, I can’t say no! Never could!

    When I lived with my parents, they helped me, no tv, no internet, and boom, 2 months no PMO!

    And now in my own department I have no television, no internet access, just an iphone and ipad, that are restricted! And will be even better restricted.

    But when I visit friends or parents and have access to one of their internet devices I lose control! I sit in front of the PC, and I get weaker and weaker, then just a glimpse, and then a full PMO session. I really really hate it. And I still did not rebooted and I don’t know, if I ever will reach 90 days!

    Sure I want to reach 90 days, I am doing sport, what my doctor recommended, I try to help people and fill my mind with good things, eating healthy, to lower my libido to make urge and cravings less, so the chances are low to relapse.

    I hate my mistakes, my low self control, i hate it ...


    If anybody answers, you are welcome, maybe you, got an advice.

    Good night,

    Buddys.
     
  2. M-mcfly

    M-mcfly Fapstronaut

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    I don’t really have any advice as I’m only on day 12 vs 20 year addiction. I just want to say good luck and I hope you overcome your demons.
     
  3. Jonny1992

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    Thx for the reply buddy. Good luck om your streak!
     
  4. Jonny, it's just about your own self control in the end..not about your parents, an installed program, or anyone else taking away your control or use..
    You gotta do it for yourself thats what everyone else is doing, using all the self control they have.. and its hard but I think you're very respectable since you never stay down for long or binge..and you really are trying..I think you're gonna figure things out.

    I know I don't have much advice for you ..Just wishing you much luck, my friend! You got this, the power is in you.
     
  5. Brother Eagle

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    a beginner warrior will feel weak ,afraid and so many negative feelings and that's normal ,but when he ignores these feelings and thoughts by enduring ,suffering, struggling and fighting every single time he faces the enemy ,his willpower will become tougher and tougher day after day and war after war til he forgets what the word "weak" does mean, so jonny i guess now, you know what to do when u have internet access!
    God bless.
     
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  6. Jonny1992

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    for now, i try avoiding internet access, to week for that!
     
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  7. Brother Eagle

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    face it jonny ,have an internet access and do the right thing ;)
     
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  8. Jonny1992

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    Naaa, I really tried, I will first do without, trying full reboot!

    as soon as I am in front of a pc, my heart starts to beat way faster. But thx for reading and answering!
     
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  9. Brother Eagle

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    fine jonny, never hesitate and good luck:)
     
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  10. Fight harder.
     
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  11. safa61947

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    @Harpy gave you good advice. Don't you get more ashamed of relapsing in a friend's house? Or is it okay? I would try to build willpower by letting access open at your home and relying only on will power. You might be depending too much on blockers, and when they are away, you lose control.
     
  12. Jonny1992

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    Sure I am ashamed of it. And I feel bad!
    But for now I am too afraid. For example now, I really want to visit cam sites! I feel this urge in myself. But I am very happy, that I cannot do it now. My tiny streak won’t get lost and I feel safer!

    And willpower I am trying to train through sport first. Leaving the comfort zone even if I don’t want anymore. I wont forget Harpys tip. But I still want to wait.
     
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  13. Aboodhi

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    The answer lies within you my friend. Never seek it outside. Don't rely on any programmed softwares or anything. You have to rely on yourself, your willpower to not do it again. First of all sort out all the harmness and effects PMO would cause you. Then clearly state yourself not to do so. Whenever you feel the urge just think about all those things. It's just a pleasure that would last for some minutes and the regret it'd cause definitely exceeds the pleasure. For some days, in some case some weeks. So think about it the next time you gonna do PMO. My best advice is Do not let the desire win your will power. You've got this brother. Good luck!
     
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