Hi friends, I am in a relationship with a PA and I am feeling very alone. Our communication comes and goes, but a lot of it feels like me “bullying” my partner for information and him giving me as little information as possible. Early on in our relationship, I noticed trouble with my partner and his ability to O with me. I did some reading and suggested he cut back on PMO. He got super defensive and argued with me about it, but finally agreed. In later conversations, he promised he hadn’t done it since he promised not to. But after a heated argument, he revealed he had looked twice (maybe more?). I also found out he signed up for a cougar dating app that was inspired y P and used photos and videos of his exes to MO. We then took the steps to block his phone, but he ended up fulfilling his need with soft-core videos of women covered in paint, twerking, in see-through dresses, etc. We blocked that site and he swears that since that moment it’s been “out of site, out of mind”. I have since not caught anything on his history (his phone is blocked, he cannot go in private or delete his history) and his work computer stays at work (he is a teacher and we work together) and he will only work in the room with other co-workers present. In addition, he is seeing a therapist with a focus on men’s issues and in a Sex Addict Anonymous Group. He has not missed a meeting and is at 100 days. Twice, I have caught him oogling other women in real life (walking and subway). He later admitted that this has happened maybe 4-6 times more because he was angry at me for not trusting him and immaturely took out these emotions in that way. He also says that when he gets sad/I don’t believe him, he can imagine a scene from P in great detail in his head but does not use it to fantasize, just once in a while thinks, “why am I trying if she doesn’t believe me”. But, I don’t believe him because of the lack of independent disclosure / lying that has come along with this. Is it possible he is being honest or is he in denial or is he still lying?