Hey all. I've been doing nofap for a very long time and I only felt nofap benefits in my early honeymoon phase of reboot. But as of recently and for a while I've literally seen no benefits. In fact it seems that I'm worse than I was as a pmo addict in many areas. I get mad anxiety around women, I play sports horribly, can't remember words, and have no joy in things. It's interesting that I was even better when I did pmo. Also one thing to note is that I did soft mode for the past year or so, so I have been masturbating quite frequently. I'm also really depressed. But currently I'm on a streak and it shouldn't be this way. I'm on hard mode full abstinence. Is this a MO flatline or is P like horrifically bad for you? Guess time will tell. Thanks!
First of all, CONGRATS on your streak. Thats really great! #1: Your brain is going to be on OVERDRIVE trying to convince you to go back to PMO. "it wasnt so bad" or "I functioned better on it, it reduced my stress, anxiety, etc" - these are classic tell signs of the addiction. #2: Do you have a journal? I find out memories are super flawed on this stuff. Read your diary / journal entries from that time and you will see there are a LOT of benefits and you actually felt like shit doing PMO. #3: PMO will *not* solve all your life problems. For many of us, we did it b/c we had very seriously bad stuff in our lives. However, it does make problems in life much, much worse. Financially, destroyed marriages, ED, or even jail if you go real deep into it. Ultimately, it wants to kill you since there is no "enough" with porn. If youre going through a rough patch, maybe that's just life? PMO wont make it better. Stay on the streak brother!
Thanks for your kind words. I believe my MO relapses have really hurt my benefits. Had to learn it the hard way, I'm in complete misery. I do believe nofap is a major life aid and does help a bit. If pmo is like a drug then quitting it is a sober life. Which means we will be living the life of our dreams. It's just what I believe deep down.