Nocturnal Emision after 6.5 months PMO free

Yo, i had 6.5 months without a release hard mode. The longest I have ever had! Part of it was achieved by a heavy flatline.

But last night I came in my sleep. It was not even a wet dream. I know I technicaly did not loose my time, but I Did loose my chi that I enjoy saving to use towards my super powers and in my meditation.

My fear is that in the past a wet dream led to a relaps and I dont want to do that.

My penis feels sexualy charged now and really sensitive and wants more and I feel triggerd and need to avoid the Chaiser Affect.

Im just posting all this to stay honest, on board and not slip back into old habits.

Part of how I got so much time is I gave up dating for this reboot. I had found that in the past flirting and going to clubs and events to hit on girls would lead to pmo later when i got home and so i decided to give it up to do a full reboot. Also the only women I ever mett or dated all come from an abused background of childhood trama. So its not worth dating them anyway. I had decided that the reason i only meet girls that are damaged is that all the girls in porn are damaged and i was tuned to that sort of vibe. So if i want to meet a different type of girl i needed a full reboot.. also i tended to slip after a gig, so i was practicing doing jobs and goal was to not pmo after.. so last night i had a job and decided to hit on and tried to flirt with one of the girls there after it ended, completley forgetting about my plan to not date, why im not dating, and that im vonurable after a gig all went out the window. I plain forgot.

I had no game, didnt get any traction, plus she was smoking pot after and im drug free.. so i left and suger binged on oatmeal cookies and horchata drink.

Then i released in my sleep... i think they might be connected.. im also beating myself up a bit as I feel that if I had meditated that day it would of not happened as the chi energy would of been used to transmuted to my higher self in the meditation.. but i took a nap instead of meditation..

Ok thats about it. Had to get this all off my chest. I know i had an amazing long streak.. and its 20 steps forward 1 step back.. and i guess this will be another motivation to meditate and channel the sexual energy to better things.. and its a sign my flatline is going away.. im going to trust my body is just taking care of itself and cleaning its pipes...

I just dont want this to trigger a relapse and need to take extra care of myself and hit the gym, eat healthy, and get good sleep and practice self care.

Thanks brothers.