noFap and Foot Fetish / how I cured my addiction

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  1. nyxDrive

    nyxDrive Fapstronaut

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    Hi Dear Friends
    I just signed up to this forum and i'm glad i was not alone. So, I want to share my story. I started to masturbate when i think i was 12 yo (now i'm 26) . I was very compulsive masturbator, to couple of times a day. I was jerking to photos, some posters,(no internet in 2005) and started to be intersted in some things, like sexy nails, hands and feet.That was maybe some years after, when i had access to internet porn sites (maybe 2011). I develop some kind of Fetish ( I hate that word!), of course i wasn't aware of it. During that time i was on faculty, but my curcumstances were very hard, like, i didn't have money, my exams were very hard and i was hopeless and without motivation to continue. Also i had a girlfriend ( im married to her now), who supported me all the time, but the Porn was very close friend to me. I had sex with her, but not the sex should be. I jerked all the time to Porn to get some relaxation, to get some motivation for the day after. That led me Panic attacks, Heart Palpitations, Stress 24/7. I was very negative and angry person. But with the unsuccess with my faculty, my material status, i didn't know that masturbation made it very worse that it is. I also have astma, and the periods i was breathless, hard to breath, i was thinking astma was the problem. As the years passed i finished my faculty, got a job, got married and slowly, but i reached some kind of success. But my sexual life was awful. I had sex with her maybe once or two times a month, or none.She knew about my porn addiction but i lied to her that i was rarely watching. I didn't mention, i got interested in her feet (because are perfect) and after massaging her feet, i always got footjob and i was happy. But is not how sexual life works. My erection and longetivity in bed was very short, premature ejaculation and things which everybody knows here. But when nightfall comes, Pornhub made me harder than anything, and that's how my life went on. Last 2 years i started to watch only Footjob, Handjob, and some kind of sexy nail involved porn, and every girl i saw on a movie i browsed Wikifeet to find her attractive or not. If a girl have sexy nails and toes and she's beautiful is a jackpot, but if she's a beaty with ugly feet, really it's big NO from me. So i still didn't want it to say that i had "thing" for sexy feet. Once she asked me - i said no to that. Last year, i had really bad palpitations, panic attacks, fear inside me, ( doom is coming) and it was very very hard. I found this forum noFap, watched lot of stories, so i wanted to give it a try. In Januari this year, i cut it down masturbation, took ashwaganda, magnesium, zinc,b-complex, and vitamin C. I relapsed couple of times, but that was only sexual intercourse with her ( NO PORN anymore). And here i am in April. I can't say im in great shape (still get palps, weakness/no energy, but something other happened. With Years i didn't want to have sex with emotions, kissing and hugging. My cumload it's something ive never been seen with years!! From the worst, our sexual life went to a Great in someway, in small amount of time. I want to have sex with her everyday!!!. My Penis went hard as rock with her and i can last in bed. Why I was so stupid to watch porn all these years , instead of having the most gorgeous thing next to me? I will never watch a porn again!!. But also, two days ago i wanted to picture her feet with sexy red polish and the night before i was looked at them on my computer and i went insane. I got very strong boner and started to shaking and wanted to cum on them so bad. I didn't do that, because a swore ill never do it with my own hand. Day after i confess it to her that i must have "thing" for her feet and ill do anything for that satisfaction. She laughed at me , and said, i knew that long time ago, haha. But as i promised, i'll never watch a porn again. Thanks to this site and all friends here, im glad i changed my sexual life!.
     
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  2. AngeZarate10

    AngeZarate10 Fapstronaut

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    today i've relapsed, after 25 days
    also i had got a foot fetish, really compulsive.
    but i've restored exciting for ass, tits, etc...
    one step at time...
     
  3. nyxDrive

    nyxDrive Fapstronaut

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    I stopped masturbation, and sex. Maybe 5 max times at month. The summer is here, and the girls are half naked with sexy feet, so it's hard not to watch. But, now, i can control it. Not too much, but cutting masturbation, really cuts that obession. I can hold it, and not to jerk of. Maybe it's working...
     
  4. Always be positive

    Always be positive Fapstronaut

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    This will help you a lot, watch this and say goodbye to urges forever

    https://www.nofap.com/forum/index.php?threads/if-youre-struggling.232140/

    But however urges sometimes can attack even if you are focused on something else, when i got rid of those 1% foods which increases urges and started enjoying 99% other beautiful foods it became so much easyer for me ^_^
     
  5. I have autism i been bullied all my in school i had anxiety all my life and i started masturbating since i was 13 i was jerking to sexy photos,now Im 26 i have anxiety, heart palpitations panic attacks depression i've been to the doctor they say my heart is ok but i keep having heart palpitations when drink a soda like mtn dew or fanta orange soda i have heart palpitations even when i have a heavy meal i have heart palpitations masturbation ruined my life i dont know what to do sometimes i want to die i wish was addicted to something else like marihuana or alcohol i hate masturbation im scared of having a heart attack
     
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  6. Ricardo26

    Ricardo26 Fapstronaut

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    I have autism i been bullied all my in school i had anxiety all my life and i started masturbating since i was 13 i was jerking to sexy photos now Im 26 i have anxiety, heart palpitations, panic attacks and depression i've been to the doctor they say my heart is ok but i keep having heart palpitations when drink a soda like mtn dew or fanta orange soda i have heart palpitations even when i have a heavy meal i have heart palpitations masturbation ruined my life i dont know what to do sometimes i want to die i wish was addicted to something else like marihuana or alcohol i hate masturbation
     

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