Ive noticed recently that whenever I lose streaks it has less to do with triggering and more to do with not caring about anything anymore (especially myself). It seems deeply rooted in self-esteem and self-destruction issues. I know that nofap is good, I know that I am feeling better from abstaining. I even have lists of all the amazing things I've accomplished without P. But when I reset/relapse these days, it is clearly a case of I don't care about doing better. There's a person inside of me that wants to see me fail, wants to see me suffer. What can I do about that person? The one that simply hates me? p.s. I understand this person best when I hear the Fleetwood Mac blues song, "Something Inside of Me" (great song)- the lyrics don't translate exactly, but the feeling does.