NoFap Biggest Non-Beliver

I joined nofap simply because there was no other alternative to solve my pms addiction problems... and i must say i was pretty disappointed with the website and the ideology behind it.

At least i thought no one would realistically expect some online journal for addicts to share their stories would be of any help... was i wrong? this question is yet be answered..
what i was expecting though was scientifically proven programs and exercises that would help participant in their struggles with these addictions and a better website design (ux/ui) to deliver these programs... but i found nothing of that nature.

So my initial questions was how do i make the best out of nofap? the best answer i got was that i should make a better introduction of my self, make a honest and complete story of my dreams, expectations and struggles.. i must say this response was very underwhelming, but then i decided to make a journal of my self only after
seven days of successful rebooting.

WHO AM I?
i am Kenneth mayor from Africa. i am 23 year old male, currently an engineering student studying petroleum engineering.

I am not from a wealthy or even mildly stable family, most times it feels like no one knows what they are doing, and every year the struggle gets tougher and it becomes harder to cope.
Coupled with the fact that i am an introvert who suffered a little bit of inferiority complex as a kid, and have also grown to be very pessimistic about life.

Meeting, flirting and establishing romantic relationships with girls was simply an impossible feat for me and probably still is. however i had wild and vivid imaginations and desires, so PMO was to me, a natural escape from life into a world where all or most of my desires where met.

I feel like my case is a little bit more difficult because i started fapping at a very young age, about 11 years old and i didn't need porn, all i needed was my imagination. then it got worse when i started having access to high quality pornographic movies.

The sad thing about my story is that as i grew older and started learning about the side effects of PMO, i tried harder to stop. but the harder i tried to stop the deeper i fell into the habit of PMO. And the good stuffs was becoming booring as i started searching for sicker, dirtier porn videos. this became the vicious circle that destroyed my life for more than a decade and i could not escape.

WHAT ARE MY DREAMS AND DESIRES?

I am passionate about the internet, business and technology in general and one day i hope to be a part of this world.
I also have an insatiable thirst for women and sex, sometimes i wish there was a switch off button.
I also love music and have produced a few.
and a good life for me would be a life where i am the CEO of my own company or an important employee of a multinational company.

MY DOWNFALLS AND THE SIDE EFFECTS OF MY ADDICTION
After a few years i started experiencing the following defects.

Lack of desire to pursue my dreams, but lots of desire to pursue anything that would turn me on.
Loss of sexual orientation, it got so bad i was willing to have sex with gay dudes, had i not controlled myself..
Hair loss. i started growing bald at a young age.
General body weakness, tiredness and laziness.
ADHD lack of concentration. you know you've got these when you read a line and immediately have to go back and read it again cuz somehow you missed it the first time
Lack of self-confidence and inability to boldly communicate with women which lead to more addictive habits.
and the list goes on. i basically became a living potato.

ACHIEVEMENTS and WHAT I HAVE LEARNT SO FAR?

A week of successful rebooting which is still nothing
Hope and faith that one day i may finally defeat this curse
more about how PMO harms the brain. definitely more bad news.

CONCLUSION
the nofap community is definitely great one, and maybe one day i would be finally get rid of PMO with the help of this community. but i still need advice and

assistance regarding how to use this website.


THANK YOU

 

Thanks wonderful quote though, a little bit scary isn't it?

 

If Shakespeare used his imagination to jerk off how did he become so successful? i am guessing it was not very habitual like maybe once a month...

 

Yea Right!!!!