Nofap BOOTCAMP ; NO PMO/ HELL Mode [Open]

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  1. newtry

    newtry Fapstronaut

    D56 (Saturday) Hm. In the morning I prepared my class that I will give on Tuesday (Effective Call). My brother again showed signs of his undiagnosed mental illness. Now he has persecutory delusions. I tried to reason with him, he insulted me, then he apologized, anyway ... it's not easy to deal with someone like that. I hope he accepts, someday, the help God wants to give him.
    In the afternoon I was in the nursing home, visiting the grandparents and bringing them a word of hope. I already compressed myself with a grandmother to bring wool on my next visit.
    Then, I was at the party of the youth gathering of my Church. I could stand out by winning a basketball game (miracle of God), and after eating, I made several puzzles for them. I felt in glory.

    D57 (Sunday) Hm. Studied. In the Church I participated in the rehearsal of the play (nobody made fun of this time) and with the choir.

    D58 (Monday) Hm. In the morning I worked. At home I studied. I was very tired all day, but I struggled to do my homework.

    D59 (Tuesday) Hm. In the morning I was studying for my exam and I received a call from my job with something urgent. That altered my plans, and I had to stop studying. I was late for the exam but they let me do it. I think I did well ... God will say. What matters most to me in that class is to have planted the seed of faith in my classmates and in the teacher.
    In the afternoon, I gave my class (Effective Call). I had a new student (the husband of one of my students). Thank God that the men of my Church are being encouraged to come to my classes ... but God bless the women, who are the first to support the ministries.

    D60 (Today) Hm. In the morning I advanced with work. Then, at my house, I took a nap. When I woke up, I was studying for my next class (Glorification). That will be the last class for this year. Next year we will start with Christology.
    I am healthy, thank you :)
     
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  3. Pedro.kills

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    Hell mode 2/3

    Yesterday was a real good day but today was a big fuck up. Why you ask? It’s because I’m staying out late with my friends out at the casino, dinners, strip clubs, parties.. i sleep late, even though I’m sober i wake up late and feel like shit. I dont train, i dont eat a healthy meal, i dont meditate, i dont read and i feel like i have empty hole inside me. Then i need to fill it with hookers, porn or even last night; i really wanted to drink again. Sleep is so important for your mind and well being.. Treat the mind right and it will pay you back in triple.

    I will not pay for sex, hangout with suger babies, look for escorts, go to massage parlors ever again. Sure ill miss out on gangbangs when i go out of town with my friends but where does it lead to after that? It leads to coming back home and trying to fill that empty hole. Once you open the door, the flood gates open. If you feel regret when you do something 9/10 times it probably isn’t good for your soul.

    When i feel restless, irritable and discontent i need to continue to eat healthy if its early on in the day. I need to meditate, read and pray.. OR go out and fucken help someone, see how they are doing. Read about acceptance... Finish the steps, you have the tools.

    My soul needs to be one with itself, and not look for things to fill it with. I need to control my eurges and be in peace with my mind. Paying for sex isn’t real, and its tricking your mind to be happy for a short period of time. I ain’t no fucking trick.
     
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  4. im’possible

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    Yesterday was a good day, today wasn't, maybe tomorrow is. Lead the way sir.

    Lt @newtry update your list page when get well. You're still Sgt 1st class now. It'd be great to see 3 lieutenants together.

    @L'empereur time out is noted. Report when you're ready.

    @GonTheHunter are you gonna be languages expert?

    Is @theman1 still alive?
     
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  5. Pedro.kills

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    Thank you sir.
     
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  6. Pedro.kills

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    Hell mode 2/4

    Yesterday was an amazing day but i was feeling empty. Since i slept with an escort the day before and from when i first did it after a long time on a bachelor party; I’ve been wanting it like crazy again. This time its different, my mind wants to relapse on drugs and alcohol. After an amazing day, at night came the feeling of emptiness and wanting to party. The thought of doing drugs, or boozing hasn’t been a thought for a while up until now. Doing things that bring us back to our old lifestyle are triggers and we must create a new path.

    I PMed last night, so i dont go out and use again.. When i feel like I’m empty i need to mediate, pray, read. I cant eat past 12 o’clock, i went and go fried chicken at 1am even though i was dead tired. I was trying to fill the hole inside me... I need to fill it with spirituality and my higher power. I forced myself to wake up early today and get my day right. I will start on the 12 steps today and put that as a priority.

    I recently started helping people and the response from them (which i never expected back) is amazing, I’m getting msg telling me that they appreciate me in their life and I’ve helped them in ways no one else have. One man told me this morning he was on the path to death but i saved him and now he wants to live. I used to only help people when i had something on them i wanted back, it was always a game. I never once thought i could help someone and not expect anything.

    Today will be a good day, good things are coming. Here’s a quick reminder to myself when feeling empty (restless, irritable and discontent)

    1. Get down and pray
    2. Read things from the big book
    3. Meditate
    4. Call someone
    5. See if you can help someone in need
     
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  7. im’possible

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    Two things sir, your rank is above me. I am a lieutenant for 9 days so you take the title.

    Second, there's the biggest redlight street (pink to be exact) in my town and I never been there. I don't contact them concerning the STDs and simply they smell like perfume. Which is not my favorite. I don't perfume. So if sir want to show us what major is like, stop escorting please.

    I do think it should be a reason you want to be addicted. As you said filling the hole. Can the major find something else to cope with the emptiness?
    I found lots of people playing music, instrument. Can that be your choice?

    Also, hunger promotes sexual desire. That's what I learned from the past. Fulfilling spiritually is awsome but please also fulfil humanly.

    As the topage says plesse copy and post this to our relapse report. Thank you sir.
     
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  8. Pedro.kills

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    Hell mode 3/5

    Today was a great day. I did everything i had to do but go to the gym. I forced myself to come home early when everyone was pushing me to stay out, i put myself first. I prayed morning, meditated and now i will be praying before bed. My mind is on check today. Feeling GREAT!
     
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  9. Pedro.kills

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    I gym, i box, driving fast and i love working on my business. The emptiness is my broken link to my higher power. It’s a reminder to get reconnected.

    If i dont do escorts, i usually met girls and take care of them buy them things and do things like that. Maybe help them with their rent or car payments.. I feel like this is the better side of relationships than escorting? I’m working on it, but for sure I will not be escorting thats for damn sure. I may have some good expirences where the girls were sweet but majority are bad.. Not something i want in my life anymore. I will not be paying anymore, ever.. It brings me resentment. It’s like when i drank and had good expirences but most of them was bad, samething.
     
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  10. astrobear

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    119 - 142 Check-in!

    Check-in counter: 128 - started on Day 15
     
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  11. |Gon|

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    Day 0, daily check-in. This time i'll have the biggest streak of my life without PMO!

    I'm a "slave", now, later i'll be a free man!
     
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  12. irishrover

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    Back on the horse now, 2 days and counting. Feeling motivated again after a lapse on Thursday night!
     
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  13. |Gon|

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    Great job! :)
     
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  14. theman1

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    21 DAYS completed. I'm still standing.
    Have been doing brilliant in academics.
    I had major urges lately, but I shall not fall. Not again.
     
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  15. Pedro.kills

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    4/7 Hell mode

    Today was a shit day. WHY? Yesterday I did everything by the book, snuck out a party early went to bed. I was honest with a girl for the first time of my life... Crazy day.. But i decided to sleep next to my phone, which made me snooze while i was sleeping then cause me to wake up overslept and feel like shit. Then i got mcdoanlds in the morning which made things worse and to top it off I PMd.

    The ultimate shit feeling is the fact i PMd, we continue doing things to us to cause resentment over things that provide us with instant gratifcication. I could have just went back to bed or prayed if i wasent feeling the greatest, and went on with my day. Instead today i will be wasting another day or three living in my head.
     
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  16. newtry

    newtry Fapstronaut

    Thank God we have prayer! Keep going! The Lord will give us victory if we remain in holiness!
     
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  17. newtry

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    I'm going to check it ... I have two counts, the one without PM, and the one without PM in Hell mode (the latter is in red in my signature). Thanks for always supporting me. I hope you are doing well ... 131 days is an excellent achievement.
     
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  18. newtry

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    Thanks for the rain of likes the other day. I hope you can find inside that barrier against PM ... it's there ... at first we don't know, but after a few days of abstinence you can feel it, and the temptation is not so strong.
     
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  19. newtry

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    D61 (Thursday) Hell mode. In the morning I was studying and reading (the book "Christianity in crisis, 21st century", about the gospel of prosperity and other blasphemies). Then I went to look for the results of my exam. I passed with excellent qualification, so I am at peace with my studies of this class until March. Then, I was in the Church, praying for many topics.

    D62 (Friday) Hell mode. In the morning: work. In the afternoon: I study (Glorification), I took a nap, and then a long trip to my parents' house. I took the opportunity to move forward with my book.

    D63 (Saturday) Hell mode. All morning reading the book I mentioned, until I finished it. In the afternoon I was in the Church, for the final rehearsal of the play and the choir. Then, at home, I continued studying Glorification for my Theology class that I will give on Tuesday.

    D64 (Sunday) Hell mode. All morning studying, and I reviewed my parliaments. The day was rainy. In the afternoon I went to dinner at my Church, and finally we exhibited the play. I had the main role (I played a businessman who spent his youth making money, and now he realizes that his life is empty and regrets his sins and asks God to enter his life and make him a new man, this time no one made fun of my work, as happened in two trials, and there were applause and congratulations). It was an excellent dinner ... that does not compare to the dinner that Christians will have when Christ returns, at the Lamb's Supper.

    D65 (Monday) Hell mode. In the morning: I worked. Now: studying for my class tomorrow and attending my social networks. I continue to learn about other cultures, especially their spiritual beliefs. I was talking to a Hindu, who told me about "Moksha" and "Mukti" ... interesting. It is difficult not to prejudge, but if it is true that Christ is the only way (as I think it is) we must let it be in these cases that it is the Holy Spirit in us who thinks to speak, rather than us.
     
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  20. newtry

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    I´m captain now :)
     
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