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Nofap BOOTCAMP ; NO PMO/ HELL Mode [Open]

Discussion in 'Events & Challenges' started by MONSTER MONK, Mar 3, 2019.

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  1. Pedro.Conquers

    Pedro.Conquers Fapstronaut

    Hell mode 2/4

    Yesterday was an amazing day but i was feeling empty. Since i slept with an escort the day before and from when i first did it after a long time on a bachelor party; I’ve been wanting it like crazy again. This time its different, my mind wants to relapse on drugs and alcohol. After an amazing day, at night came the feeling of emptiness and wanting to party. The thought of doing drugs, or boozing hasn’t been a thought for a while up until now. Doing things that bring us back to our old lifestyle are triggers and we must create a new path.

    I PMed last night, so i dont go out and use again.. When i feel like I’m empty i need to mediate, pray, read. I cant eat past 12 o’clock, i went and go fried chicken at 1am even though i was dead tired. I was trying to fill the hole inside me... I need to fill it with spirituality and my higher power. I forced myself to wake up early today and get my day right. I will start on the 12 steps today and put that as a priority.

    I recently started helping people and the response from them (which i never expected back) is amazing, I’m getting msg telling me that they appreciate me in their life and I’ve helped them in ways no one else have. One man told me this morning he was on the path to death but i saved him and now he wants to live. I used to only help people when i had something on them i wanted back, it was always a game. I never once thought i could help someone and not expect anything.

    Today will be a good day, good things are coming. Here’s a quick reminder to myself when feeling empty (restless, irritable and discontent)

    1. Get down and pray
    2. Read things from the big book
    3. Meditate
    4. Call someone
    5. See if you can help someone in need
     
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  2. im’possible

    im’possible Fapstronaut

    Two things sir, your rank is above me. I am a lieutenant for 9 days so you take the title.

    Second, there's the biggest redlight street (pink to be exact) in my town and I never been there. I don't contact them concerning the STDs and simply they smell like perfume. Which is not my favorite. I don't perfume. So if sir want to show us what major is like, stop escorting please.

    I do think it should be a reason you want to be addicted. As you said filling the hole. Can the major find something else to cope with the emptiness?
    I found lots of people playing music, instrument. Can that be your choice?

    Also, hunger promotes sexual desire. That's what I learned from the past. Fulfilling spiritually is awsome but please also fulfil humanly.

    As the topage says plesse copy and post this to our relapse report. Thank you sir.
     
  3. Pedro.Conquers

    Pedro.Conquers Fapstronaut

    Hell mode 3/5

    Today was a great day. I did everything i had to do but go to the gym. I forced myself to come home early when everyone was pushing me to stay out, i put myself first. I prayed morning, meditated and now i will be praying before bed. My mind is on check today. Feeling GREAT!
     
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  4. Pedro.Conquers

    Pedro.Conquers Fapstronaut

    I gym, i box, driving fast and i love working on my business. The emptiness is my broken link to my higher power. It’s a reminder to get reconnected.

    If i dont do escorts, i usually met girls and take care of them buy them things and do things like that. Maybe help them with their rent or car payments.. I feel like this is the better side of relationships than escorting? I’m working on it, but for sure I will not be escorting thats for damn sure. I may have some good expirences where the girls were sweet but majority are bad.. Not something i want in my life anymore. I will not be paying anymore, ever.. It brings me resentment. It’s like when i drank and had good expirences but most of them was bad, samething.
     
  5. astrobear

    astrobear Fapstronaut

    119 - 142 Check-in!

    Check-in counter: 128 - started on Day 15
     
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  6. Day 0, daily check-in. This time i'll have the biggest streak of my life without PMO!

    I'm a "slave", now, later i'll be a free man!
     
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  7. irishrover

    irishrover Fapstronaut

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    Back on the horse now, 2 days and counting. Feeling motivated again after a lapse on Thursday night!
     
  8. Great job! :)
     
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  9. summer_breeze

    summer_breeze Fapstronaut

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    21 DAYS completed. I'm still standing.
    Have been doing brilliant in academics.
    I had major urges lately, but I shall not fall. Not again.
     
  10. Pedro.Conquers

    Pedro.Conquers Fapstronaut

    4/7 Hell mode

    Today was a shit day. WHY? Yesterday I did everything by the book, snuck out a party early went to bed. I was honest with a girl for the first time of my life... Crazy day.. But i decided to sleep next to my phone, which made me snooze while i was sleeping then cause me to wake up overslept and feel like shit. Then i got mcdoanlds in the morning which made things worse and to top it off I PMd.

    The ultimate shit feeling is the fact i PMd, we continue doing things to us to cause resentment over things that provide us with instant gratifcication. I could have just went back to bed or prayed if i wasent feeling the greatest, and went on with my day. Instead today i will be wasting another day or three living in my head.
     
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  11. newtry

    newtry Fapstronaut

    Thank God we have prayer! Keep going! The Lord will give us victory if we remain in holiness!
     
  12. newtry

    newtry Fapstronaut

    I'm going to check it ... I have two counts, the one without PM, and the one without PM in Hell mode (the latter is in red in my signature). Thanks for always supporting me. I hope you are doing well ... 131 days is an excellent achievement.
     
  13. newtry

    newtry Fapstronaut

    Thanks for the rain of likes the other day. I hope you can find inside that barrier against PM ... it's there ... at first we don't know, but after a few days of abstinence you can feel it, and the temptation is not so strong.
     
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  14. newtry

    newtry Fapstronaut

    D61 (Thursday) Hell mode. In the morning I was studying and reading (the book "Christianity in crisis, 21st century", about the gospel of prosperity and other blasphemies). Then I went to look for the results of my exam. I passed with excellent qualification, so I am at peace with my studies of this class until March. Then, I was in the Church, praying for many topics.

    D62 (Friday) Hell mode. In the morning: work. In the afternoon: I study (Glorification), I took a nap, and then a long trip to my parents' house. I took the opportunity to move forward with my book.

    D63 (Saturday) Hell mode. All morning reading the book I mentioned, until I finished it. In the afternoon I was in the Church, for the final rehearsal of the play and the choir. Then, at home, I continued studying Glorification for my Theology class that I will give on Tuesday.

    D64 (Sunday) Hell mode. All morning studying, and I reviewed my parliaments. The day was rainy. In the afternoon I went to dinner at my Church, and finally we exhibited the play. I had the main role (I played a businessman who spent his youth making money, and now he realizes that his life is empty and regrets his sins and asks God to enter his life and make him a new man, this time no one made fun of my work, as happened in two trials, and there were applause and congratulations). It was an excellent dinner ... that does not compare to the dinner that Christians will have when Christ returns, at the Lamb's Supper.

    D65 (Monday) Hell mode. In the morning: I worked. Now: studying for my class tomorrow and attending my social networks. I continue to learn about other cultures, especially their spiritual beliefs. I was talking to a Hindu, who told me about "Moksha" and "Mukti" ... interesting. It is difficult not to prejudge, but if it is true that Christ is the only way (as I think it is) we must let it be in these cases that it is the Holy Spirit in us who thinks to speak, rather than us.
     
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  15. newtry

    newtry Fapstronaut

    I´m captain now :)
     
  16. I'm on hell mode now, i want to have the best life possible but i need to do my tasks and be responsible first. So, hell mode on me. That's working, I use a technique called 3, 2, 1 (task). Best of all, it works.
     
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  17. MasterPablo

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  18. Day 2 (Hell Mode), daily check-in.

    I didn't prepared myself for hell mode with my planned tasks but did everything, tomorrow will be a new day with more tasks, hope i can complete all of them!
     
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  19. im’possible

    im’possible Fapstronaut

    Thanks Captain/Chaplain and lead way sir. You are almost one two zeros :)
     
    Last edited: Dec 16, 2019
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  20. I just love your nickname, "impossible" is breakable.
     
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