Day 2 Was a good day Meditation Cold shower One hour study Cleaned my room Watched motivational videos
Day 48. Worked 9 hours today. Flatline or depression is strong. Not much interest in fantasizing but missing hugs and talks with people. Urges might attack out of hiding. Too tired for self care in the evening. That's dangerous.
OMG thanks so much Had a nasty nightmare of being violated so this should kill the urges but does not improve my mood lol.
Reporting, explosion test complete. Academics. Philosophy, biz and writing. Not in a good mood here either. So I called the "special delivery." You know what I mean Biz meeting was boring. But had to do it. Little or no progress. Hope the next one is productive. I'm having dreams too. The last one was good. Not sure how does it reflect in real. Some say bad dreams but good in reality Oout.
Starting for the basics. Addiction 101. Still, just at 3rd video, he was describing the four core beliefs that I had all my life. It hurted to admit it. But guess it's a step forward.
I am really stressed these days. The stress were stronger than me today. But after the course. I didn't use porn. Maybe it was already useful in few hours. I am in again. Day 0. HELL MODE.
Where the hell was I all this time?!... It's my time to Rise! I was already here at the challenge, if I need to re-enter, please, tell me.
Standing by... I'll see you fly again. Keep learning. ....You look familiar...were you the hunter boy?
Reporting, test cancelled due to the flush flood. At least half done.Indoor. Philosophy. I need to review some path courses later. Apparently I was in danger mode. Some incomplete lists. Did solved a long time problem. One solved, another arises
Day 1 Hell mode is here again Running. Then exercise. Studied. Worked. Gave some lessons for extra money. Applied for some things I needed for the master. Completely different than yesterday. Finished Addiction 101. Started meditation.
Day 0 Expected. After long streak.. I expected more from myself.. To be honest Emotionally I am doing good I am at peak of happiness and calm but I expected more from me Guess I can't be as strong and consistent as I needed to b
Reporting, test complete. Easy one. 101 course is reviewed. Even the record says I did it before but it's been awhile and I don't remember much things. Two words to conclude. The cycle. Making a different cycle. Only those finished this course would know. Academics. Chemistry. And some phil tests retook. Better than the last time.
Only if you're going to train and learn like everyone here. This time. Good. I wish you take the featured one too. It's a long one but you won't regret the time spent. There's no can't in boot camp. Just be it
That's what I meant my friend , that I finished the course addiction 101, and I started the course about meditation
