Been working on nofap for a couple of years I guess, and it hasn't been entirely clean. I have however gone from doing pmo 2-3 times per day, to 2-3 times per month on average. But I have recently decided to do a dedicated push to quit both porn and masturbation. My biggest issue with quiting MO is my emotional instability. I am a generally very emotional guy (far more emotional than what's normal for a 19 yr old guy), and when I try to quit MO it gets even worse. If I just avoid P, I get more in touch with my emotions, and more stable, but when quiting MO I get unstable. The following example is specific, but the emotional instability applies to most emotions as well. The biggest problem right now, is what most people wouldn't call a problem. I'm falling in/out of love. There's this girl that I've been real close with for almost a year now, but we've not been dating or anything. But I have had a small crush on her, which developed into being completely in love. I believe that she was into me as well, but we never talked about it. Drama occured recently, our friendship was shaken, and all my romantic feeling were gone with the wind. But we've recently been getting closer again, and I fear that my feelings for her will come back. I don't want them to come back, because I'm not sure that she feels the same, and it's not a good time to act on those feelings anyway. Here's where the MO comes in. In the past I would just have done MO, get "post nut clarity" and my feelings would've gone away, but I can't do that now. Instead I get super anxious to the point where my days barely work at all. How can I gain control of my feelings, and not fall back in love with her?