naturehigh
Fapstronaut
I remember when I was young, I was always a good kid
I was cute and adorable
Everywhere I go, many people liked me
In such a pure and innocent age
Life was full of joy
Innocence lost
Ever since middle school, I was exposed to internet porn
Lost without a direction I was addicted to the evil habit of masturbation...
I started to change.
I let loose the demon in my heart, and opened the door of doom.
A few short years of isolation,
I turned from an innocent boy
To a wretched walking corpse
As if I fell from heaven to hell
My health declined
And many problems raised
Afraid to look in someone’s eyes, anxious and self loathing
No more confidence and faith in my heart
Spiritless eyes, dark complexion, depressed expression
I cant feel happy, even mom said I changed
No energy, why has it come to this?
Eventually, I feel my brain power starting to decrease
The problems that I can solve easily before, takes me so much time to understand
And yet I am still confused
I was always distracted in class, unable to concentrate
Memory declined, grades dropped
I couldn’t stop masturbation despite my efforts
Every time I reach a certain point, I get dragged back into the vicious circle
The temptation demon is too strong, I am powerless in its presence
Lack of hygiene
Very lazy
Easily irritated
Easily angered
A bright teenager
Turned into wretched degenerate
Human trash afraid to see light
The strange looks from classmates and loved ones carved deep scars in my heart
My heart was tormented
I remember once, a girl whispered behind my back
“How did he turn so hideous?!”
Although her voice was soft, every word turned into a sharp sword that pierced my heart
Ever since I came to NoFap, I learned a lot.
I realized how ignorant I was in the past
I threw away the rest of my life...for a few seconds of pleasure
Today I vow
I wow to eliminate this evil habit
I will continue to learn and read to increase my awareness
Thought arise, cut it out
Thought arise, follow not
Thought arise, be aware
Once aware, it is naught
From learning from fellow brothers and cutting out sexual fantisization
I recited the verse ever time a thought arise
Once I cut out sexual fantisization
I changed from a noob who always lost to the temptation demon
And grown into a strong fapstronaught
The temptation demon is extremely sly and dangerous
We must always maintain vigilant
Always be aware
Don’t let your heart sway
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