Nofap is fucking me up

My OCD got worse, my fetishes are coming back stronger every now and then, i feel like an emotionless asexual zombie, feel less masculine and manly, low energy, weak and cold most of the times, etc.

The worst part is that i feel as shitty as when i was PMOing, plus all these things i mentioned.

I don't want to go to PMO and i'm not making any excuses, but what's wrong with me? Is that a flatline or what? I just really struggle everyday because of this and it's taking a toll on my mentality. If this flatline continued for many months or a year i would certainly be completely destroyed as a person.

Does it ever get better or should i just accept being this way forever?