I know that longer streaks lead me extreme rage outburst and emotional irritability. I use to relapse after view days but if I really get into it I feel my personality changing too. Normally I'm a very laid back guy, nothing can get to me, but I'm increasingly because more irritable and emotional volatile. I wonder if PMO just supressed my real personality (by numbing me) and now I'm becoming my real self by stop numbing myself? Now I know how girls/women feel when they are their period. My tolerance for irritability is 0%. :/ My grandparents invited me to visit them. I was going to cook something there because I didn't have any dinner yet. I decided not to go. Because if I go they will stick their nose in my business, comment on every small thing. It is not the first time I cooked at my grandparents place. I know everything they are going to say when I cook. I told them not to get involved with my cooking. But they never listen and do it anyway, make the same annoying comments I already know they are going to say (like don't put the heat too high, while I just put the heat on second ago). I can't just put up with that. It might sound weird but it is going to feel like somebody torturing me with dripping on me. I don't want to lash out at them because they are old and won't change anyway. I'm just not going to go. What do you guys recommend?